It hasn't gotten any better...

[Mamana24]

So last night my fiance had a meeting in Bethesda and he wasnt gonna be home till around 9:30 - 10 pm. So I figured since they were "giving out" personal days at my job I would work from 5:30 pm to 8:30 pm at a school function baby sitting the kids for $50 (we need the money). Well, the night went well and I got a ride home from the only guy teacher in the whole school. Yes, he's handsome. NO hes not my type. He's too goofy and I've seen him with the kids and I just see him as a teacher and nothing else. Even when my fiance and I werent together I never felt anything for this teacher. So he kindly gave me a ride home and we sat in the car talking about life and his wife just having a baby, how were both living pay check to pay check, etc. ANYWAYS, NOTHIING HAPPENED and all we did was talk. No one got too personal or anything, it was just a nice talk. Well as we're sitting in the car talking my fiance pulls up so we get out of the and I introduce him. Well so we said bye and I said thanks for the ride and when we get in the house my fiance is all weird. He says it was weird I was in the car with a guy that late, and how would I like it if he had another woman in the car? Well I never thought twice about it to be honest bc it was just a ride and it just ended up that we sat there talking. It meant nothing to me and I'm so hurt that I've been working so hard to have him trust me again and a simple ride made him think twice again. =( Needless to say I cried (duh I'm pg) and we talked and talked. Even HE cried. I understand he has been cheated on by almost every single woman he has been with. But I'm not them. Its not fair to me to have to be doubted all the time. So I thought we were ok after we talked and he says, "Well since we're in the subject of being honest" my ex wrote me on my facebook and asked why I deleted her and if I wasn't allowed to talk to her anymore." He says he didn't answer. At this point I'm so sad and dissapointed I didn't even care last night. I asked to see her message (bc I wanted to see what she looks like again) and he made a big deal about pulling it up, etc. So I told him thats ok I didn't need to see it anymore. He got all mad all over again and said I was just playing games and that it gets annoying. etc. So I told him I didn't mean to and that I was just trying to let it go. He turns around on the bed with his back to me and I turn off the light. I said "I love you, Good night". No answer. I waited a little and said it again. No answer. I'm hurt and just getting so tired of this. Every week its something (whether I'm the one doing something wrong or him!). Will we ever just have a normal life???? GEEZ! So I wake up this morning and don't say anything to him. I just get up and get dressed (usually I'm the one to say good morning.) So after 15 minutes he says, "Good morning grumpy." I said, "Good morning, I said I love you and goodnight last night and you didn't answer." I even tried to smile when I said good morning back to him. His reply?? "Oh sorry I fell asleep." TWO MINUTES AFTER GETTING MAD AT ME??? I MEAN LITERALLY HE TURNED ON HIS SIDE AND FELL ASLEEP??! PLEASE!

Great morning huh? I hope to God I can just have a good day today and can just let this go....

Thanks for the rant and sorry for the CAPS (I'm not yelling at you guys at all).

[serphim]

Sep. 25, 2008 at 1:04 AM

Hey I know how you feel.  My husband is a very untrusting man to.  He had bad relationships and now he takes all of that out on me.  If you ever need to talk I am always around.