It seems that since the moment I looked at that hpt on Sept. 13th all I've done is worry. I got the + I was hoping for. But at the same time I keep going back to my memories of last may. I took a hpt then too and got a + it seemed like the greatest little + in the world! Went to the health department for a proof of pregnancy. Got it. Then not even two weeks later I wake up to blood all over me. God what if that happens again? I won't be able to handle it. I just won't. I pray EVERYDAY and everynight asking the lord to please spare this little soul inside me from a fate of dieing to young. But what if God isn't listening? I've never really been strong in my faith. I've changed that this past month for some reason. Before I even got my postive this month I felt like I just needed a stronger realationship with or lord. So I've built one. I'm really hopeing that building my faith in him will help ease my worries. How will my fiance take it if we lose this child too? He was every much as devistated as I was last May. I don't want him to have to go through that again. I know there is nothing I can do to stop it if it's supposed to happen. But I can pray right? And I'm asking all of you ladies to pray for my family and I too. I know you don't know me but please if you could. If anyone was to want me to pray for them all they have to do is message me. I'll pray for you. I may not get the messages quick. You see my internet keeps getting turned off! lol! But when I do get them I will pray for you if you ask. I don't understand why we women sometimes have to suffer through a miscarriage or stillbirth. My only guess is that it just isn't the right time for that soul to be here. Thank you for your time.