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A child with Autism
- Sep 20, 2008 at 3:29 PM
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I decided to give myself a reminder. A reminder of how a child with autism ends up where they do.
Most women become mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressures and a couple by habit. Did you ever wonder how mothers of children with autism are chosen? Somehow I visualize God hovering over earth selecting his instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As he observes, he instructs his angels to make notes in a giant ledger.
"Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint Matthew."
"Forrest, Marjorie, daughter, Patron Saint Cecilia."
"Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint Gerard. He's used to profanity."
Finally, He passes a name to an angel, Taylor, Julie, son. God smiles, "Give her a child with autism." The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy."
"Exactly", smiles God. "Could I give a child with autism to a mother who does not know laughter? That would be cruel".
"But has she the patience?" asks the angel.
"I don't want her to have too much patience, or she will drown in a sea of self-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wear off, she'll handle it. I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and independence that is so rare and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child I am going to give her has his own world. She has to make him live in her world and that's not going to be easy."
"But, Lord, I don't know if she even believes in you."
God smiles. "No matter. I can fix that. This one is perfect. She has just enough selfishness."
The angel gasps. "Selfishness? Is that a virtue?"
God nods. "If she cannot separate herself from the child occasionally, she will never survive. Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with less than perfect."
"She does not realize it yet, but she is to be envied. I will permit her to see clearly the things I see .... ignorance, cruelty, prejudice ... and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life because she is doing my work as surely as if she is here by my side."
"And what about her patron saint?" asks the angel, his pen poised in mid air. God smiles. "A mirror will suffice."
Now I don't personally believe in God. But what you have just read does seem to hold some truth. At least enough to give me strength to go on one more day with my child. He has autism, but he is a very bright light in my life.
Comments:
I was surprised to see you quoting something containing God...That knowing you through past journals...but it does hold true. I don't believe my child was an accident-her autism,though a challenge was presented to me because a higher power knew I would not sob,but be empowered to advocate for those without a voice.
Kudos to you Beth-without laughter the world just sux-and sometimes the easiest way to get through the day is to give autism a big thumbs up the nose and a chuckle.
This WILL NOT break me-and I know it will not break you.
(((HUGS)) my friend.
Through the tears it was hard to read. I have my days, is god real? But as an Aspie I am more a facts type of girl. Even so I like hope. and this gives me some. Though I will not rely on it. It sure touched deep.
Wow. I love this post and I needed it, thanks so much for posting.
Great post! I know this post was made a while ago, but I just now "found you" and read it! I have wrote about my Allyssa I would love it if you would read about her. I hope that you too will find some hope from reading about her!
Have a wonderful day! Thanks for posting this in a journal!
This post is beautiful. There are days when I have my "why me" moments. Then all I have to do is look at my son's smile and know that if it were someone else that he was given to, he probably wouldn't have come as far as he has. I love my son to death and I wouldn't change him for the world. If I did, he just wouldn't be my son anymore.
-Ashley
This i beautiful, i had the same idea about how god chooses the people he blesses with special children, because god only only gives us what we can handle. But i have never seen something written so well about it
This is my favorite explanation of how my son came to be! =)
I too, am the mom of a child with autism. I love this because it explains what it is it have a child with a disability. It never hurts to be reminded how special we are as mothers. God bless you, your family and your week!! 
Thank you for reminding me to treasure my little, smiley, blue-eyed gift!
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