Positive thinking doesn't make you look any younger

[MommyPhoenix]

Boy did I ever hit the blues yesterday and I am still fighting it today. I am one of those people that always tries to find the good point in everything. Allow me to state that this is not easy and getting harder the older I am getting.

So I am only 38 Years old and shouldn't feel as if I am 90 yet, but lately I look into the mirror and boy have I gotten old. Granted it has been a stressfull 2 Years, but to look at girls 25 and want to start crying is redicules. Yesterday my husband and I went to the lake and I ended up sitting myself about 40 Yards away from him so he wouldn't have to feel embarrassed being seen with me. Now that is nuts. I was looking at those young girls and felt so old.

I had 3 Kids, but after my divorce and the things that followe I only have my 17 Year old left. She is 5 month away from 18 and I swear looking at her just makes me feel older then I am.
That I hate Vegas isn't helping either. I can' t stand the heat and people are just so rude and empty here.

Who knows, maybe it gets better soon. I know I want to lose some weight and tone up but a Gym Membership just isn't in the books and I feel stupid working out alone at home. I get it together, I always do.