Totally ready but totally stressed

[Bexi324]

I have everything ready, bag, purse, medical paper/cards everything I can think of is ready to go...but this little angel needs to hurry up lol. Sure I want him/her to come when he/she is ready but I wish it could just happen...My mom keeps riding me about not being ready and how I should be more carful, does she not realize im taking every precaution I can!!!? I have somone with me everywhere I go, I sleep with a attatchable bar on my bed so i wont roll, im eating healthy, im drinking plently of water, taking my vitamins EVERYTHING but it still isn't good enough for her. She stesses me out beyond beliefe and then she says dont get stressed. I wanted her support and help but now i just wish she'd leave and its only been a day.

My grandparents are starting to get excited, grandma wants a mini me again lol. when I was younger she didn't wanna ever put me down so she said she'll probably do the same with this little cutie and grandpa is waiting for his little boy lol he wants to take his little  great grandsonn around to all his friends and brag about how big he;ll get lol. I think they're the people in my family who are taking this in a possotive way lol

Finally told my dad about me being preggo...him and I arn't talking...and he said he dosen't want anything to do with his grandson. Of course this started my mom up and now they're fighting too, my moms on the phone with him now...this has to be the most stressful part of my entire day...and not only is it stresful...it hurts me so much to know my own father probably hates me now because of a mistake, but this little angel I can't call a mistake because although he/she wasn't intended its a gift from god and its a gift im happy to recieve...why is my family so stupid!!!!?

Just a rant...can't sleep...babys kickin a lot...needa shower...im behind on school work...haing stupid home schooliing suchs...ugh to much going though my mind...

10:15pm september 21, 2008