The Move.....towards the End. (Just a Vent)

[Lynnguini]

Well Hello 2 all that are reading....

Most of you know that I am near the end of a divorce.  Which will be 9/30/08 it is also another big day too the settlement on our home.  But this past Saturday my 2 great kids & I as well as 3 very good friends of mine moved all of our belongings out of the home. It was so sad and yet at the same time a relief (if that comment makes any sense at all) but as we took the last few items out of the house..I looked at my kids and asked them if they were ready and that is when my heart broke they both just cried uncontrollably which killed me inside. I just stood there on our front lawn holding them both and telling them it would be okay..and in the back of my mind not a 100% sure if it would be okay.  You see I went from living with my parents to meeting my husband and moved in with him after we purchased our home. So this is a really big step for the kids & I (scary step for that matter).  I don't have much family left to talk too or vent too so I depend on my cafemoms that I have become Friends with for guidance, advice and a shoulder..LOL there are many of you that don't even live anywhere near me that have been such  a support factor in my life & I appreciate all of you...

Well I am looking forward to actually ending the chapter with my STBX but wish him no ill will at all. I want him to be happy because he deserves it he really does... He is a good Dad and I want to remain friends with him and hope he has every hope for me that I have for him. 

Our kids are the most important people in my life...Since my parents are deceased I have only my brother to speak to and we all know how men aren't so open to chat...

So thanks to my Momma's for the encouraging words..

 

XOXOXOX

[Jen528]

Sep. 22, 2008 at 1:05 PM

I wish you and the kids all the joy and happiness you deserve.  Yes, you are taking a big step with the move and it will take time to adjust, but it will happen.  My kids and I only lived for a few months by ourselves, but there were some really scary moments, when I realized that I have to be everything to them and that the decisions I made affected all of us.  We shed many tears and had to lean on each other heavily, but it worked out in the end.  It will work out for you, also and I am sure you will have many happy moments that will overshadow these new changes in no time.  Congratulations on your new home! 

[SteeleMommasita]

Sep. 22, 2008 at 2:38 PM

[rebeccajoy08]

Sep. 25, 2008 at 11:33 AM

It WILL be OK.  Maybe hard for a while, but it will be OK.    Stay encouraged.  We moms have more strength and capability than we give ourselves credit for.