When I think of him

[kachinav4]

 

Sometimes when I think of Noah my eyes fill up with tears, I knew that i wanted to be amother, and that he would change my life...BUT i never dreamt that I would be so over taken by the feelings of pure joy and love. My heart just over fills sometimes and the only way that it can come out it thru my eyes. I want to squeeze him tighter and just never let go. At 7 months old he is already a very loving and cuddly little man, however he also is completly content to sit on the floor and play by himself. Everytime he learns soemthing new, he gets this look of pure pride on his face and I melt. He is a great source of laughter as well as love. My heart belongs to him and his father, I am mearly the body that carries it. From the moment i found out that i was carrying him over a year ago every breath in my lungs has been for him.

 I have ppl who tell me that everything can not be about HIM or his father that i need a life of my own. I talk to my friends all the time, but ya I very much love spending time with my family, i do so above anything and everything else. I have been in alot of dark places in my life, and i have gone thru alot of things but i honestly wouldn't redo any of it, b/c everything i have been thru, and every poor life choice i have made led me here.

 His smile leads me on, and lights my way and he is the reason my world turns.