I know it is hormones, but...

[theatregirl26]

I am having a bad day.  My panic is crazy, I don't feel well, I am so tired, and I am rather depressed.  I know it will pass and if I just take my meds again (haven't for a couple of days) it will start to even out again.  I have one more month to go before I am in the second trimester so I just have to hold on until then.

But in the mean time, here I am feeling like I want to curl up under my desk and cry.  I am doing everything in my power not to cry right now. It is horrible.  I try to get help from my hubby, but he has become no good with it.  Ever since he start his EMT stuff, he has become horrible at it.  Like all the loving and sensitivity has just gone away and right now that is all that I need.  I need to be held, taken care of, pampered in a way.  And he teases me, picks on me, when I say "Do you still love me", he almost gets upset and in a very short answer says yes, of course.  Why doesn't he get this.  So I want to cry right now.  I called him and he didn't say much.  I told him I was having a bad day and he asked what he could do.  I said nothing.  What can he do, even if he did what I wanted him to do (which he doesn't).  He is at home and I am here at work.

Like I said, I know this will pass.  It always does.  Just rought while it is around. 

[gab15th]

Oct. 6, 2008 at 2:04 PM

Big huge hugs.  That's all I can offer.. stick in there!  I'm here if you need me :)

[joules2]

Oct. 6, 2008 at 5:30 PM

Hey, I'm sorry you're feeling this way... I'm sending you happy thoughts!!!  Maybe we should really try to schedule a short weekend soon!