Lately, I have been feeling so damn depressed I don't know what to do. It seems like my husband is happy as long as I shut up about anything I do not like, but the second I say anything, it is all my fault somehow. It couldn't possibly be that he is selfish, could it?

I see all these posts about women with their engagement rings, and it hurts so much inside to realize that I wasn't important enough to him to even go look for one, let alone sacrifice some of his hobbies to buy one for me. I don't feel special or wanted or loved at all. I am pretty sure if he knew how to find his ex, he would have married her instead of me. The shitty thing is, I have said this to his face and he has yet to deny it. Had never ever made me feel special, and even when he does a small gesture, it is usually right after I have told him for the umpteenth time about it.

I feel like shit every day. I work four jobs from home and he couldn't even take care of the rent for me. I sweat everything else in this house, and he couldn't take this one burden for me. No, he leaves it all for me to do. I love him so much, but right now I want to strangle him.

My birthday is coming up in two months and I just know he isn't gonna do anything for me again. I just know that he is gonna let my friends do it for me and say "I'm sorry I didn't have the money to get you a pretty." Thats what he always says.

If he thinks I am having another baby with him he is out of his ever loving mind. I am not doing it. I am not raising four kids by myself AND taking care of his ass. I can't do it. I don't know if I even want to be with him anymore.

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nettee
Oct. 9, 2008 at 8:06 AM

Awww.  I'm sorry he's being such an ass!!  Men can really have no clue sometimes!!!  My 1st reaction is "get the hell rid of him" but I know that's not right....LOL  Hang in there and keep us close!!  I'm here for you to vent to!!!  shouting

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sweet...
Oct. 18, 2008 at 9:55 PM

=( So sorry to hear that.... all I can say is for you to be honest with him before it hurts you further. He's taking you for granted and he needs to realize that he isn't a bachelor anymore... he's a husband and a father and he needs to step up to the plate. There are many things he can do for cash... such as truck driving. My husband (who before Katrina worked at a law firm) had to resort to this, it takes 3 weeks to get your liscense and you can get a job in any state at anytime & starting pay is 45-50k a year.... logistics have not been affected by the economy. Bottom line, if he wanted to do it then he would. Good luck and I'm sorry things are so hard for you. PM me anytime if you need to talk.

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