~TTC.."I say I won't, But I always Do!~

[RaynesMommy07]

I say I won't, but I always do.  I get lost in the thought of another 'you'. 

I'm never satisified as though it seems, I still have hopes, still so many dreams.

I pray for more, maybe that is selfish.

I can't help but to pray for it, at the time it feels so selfless.

It hurts so much every time .. but everytime I say I won't, but I always do.

It's misconstrude to think it doesn't hurt.  Hurt is weakness and with weakness I do not flirt.

But it hurts to the very core, yet every time I say I won't, but I always do ... it only makes that hurt, hurt even more.

I cover it up with fake smiles fulfill my days with impressive, yet superficial alibies, yet longing for 'you' on the inside.

No one knows of 'you', but another ... as ONE that person and I will discover 'you'.  As part of our lives, our hearts, our souls.  More we want of 'you', before we grow old.

The dreaded time has come for me to accept the truth ... truth is bitter, just like the fruit.  But I must taste it and realize what is so clearly for me to see ... It's no longer about what I think or what I say ... That isn't determined by me ... 'cause facts are___

I  say I won't ... but I always do.