How do you say goodbye?

[kira110782]

How do you say goodbye to someone who has always been there for you, through everything.  The good, the bad, the easy, the difficult, the funny, the sad and everything else?  How do you let go of someone you really weren't ready to let go of?  How do you stay strong when you  know that you and one other person were the only two people who would know what their best friend would want?

My best friend is gone.  She left me, and her fiancee, to go to a better place where she isn't hurting...Where she isn't suffering from complications of diabetes, where she doesn't have to prick her fingers to check her blood sugar or give herself shots of insulin...It is a better place...I know this...But as I write this, I am sorry for the typos and bad grammar...I realize how short life is.  She is...was only 26.  She was getting married in January.  We were planning her wedding.  I was her maid of honor!  And an honor it would have been!!  I would proudly stand anywhere with that girl!!

I think about the good times, and I laugh.  But 2 seconds later, I am crying again.  I should be packing.  I am taking an early flight out tomorrow to say goodbye to someone who has always been there...Her friendship has NEVER failed me.  She has NEVER walked away...How do I let go of her?  How do I tell my kids, who adored this girl, that they will never see her again?  That she isn't coming back?  How am I going to be strong enough to handle all of this?

I am taking an early flight out tomorrow and I don't know how to do this...I don't know how to say goodbye...I don't know how to be strong...It hurts...and I can't stop crying.  I am angry, sad, numb at times...I don't know what to feel....

[Sarebare]

Oct. 9, 2008 at 5:25 PM

Honey, I'm so sorry. The loss of anyone you love and care about is horrible--I know that there are no words to erase the hurt, no words to make it better--but know that you're in my thoughts and if you want to talk, even if it's just to vent or to think about the good times with your friend-I'm here. I'm sure Katie is too. We're here for you, that is what we're here for.

I'm sorry, honey, I really am.

[EmmaMatthewsMom]

Oct. 9, 2008 at 5:49 PM

Oh, I'm so sorry!!!  ((((hugs))))

[kayleezmom]

Oct. 9, 2008 at 6:09 PM

I'm so sorry Kira....

[MSugarKane]

Oct. 9, 2008 at 6:21 PM

I'm sorry, its not fair she died so young. God bless her.

[BabyMaya]

Oct. 9, 2008 at 7:18 PM

I am so sorry you lost your best friend, Kira! It must be more than you can bear right now. God bless your friend and her family.

[nicolerhicks]

Oct. 9, 2008 at 8:25 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost a cousin to the same thing a week before Mya was born. I always keep her memory and spirit alive the best I can. The initial hurt is always the hardest. As time goes on and the pain starts to subside, just remember that she's no longer in pain. I'm very sorry for your loss.