Reflecting on my daughter

[xhxcpinupx]

Yesterday after we Tom & I got done running around I had decided to sit with Zoie in the tub for a relaxing bath before bed. She hardly napped all day, and it was almost bed time.. I figured it'd be a good relaxing way to keep her up until it was bed time. I sat with her in the tub and showed her some bath toys and she was playing with them, and of course sticking them in her mouth. She can sit up on her own now but I still had to help her in the tub because she gets so excited in the water & kicks her feet alot. Sitting there with her I got to thinking about how its going to be winter again. Last winter I took alot of baths, I generally took alot of baths my whole pregnancy with Zoie, it helped out with alot of aches & pains plux it was very relaxing. I was sitting there looking at her watching her play and started thinking back to (almost) a year ago when I would lay in the tub by myself and stare at my belly and watching it move from her kicking me on the inside. Just to see her right in front of me, laughing, smiling, & playing is the best gift in the world. I am just so blessed, the last thing I ever saw myself as in life was a mother, and I am so glad I got the opportunity to be Zoie's mom. It is still crazy to me, to think back & remember the day I found out I was pregnant, I was awestuck to say the least.

[Hottiehp21]

Nov. 14, 2008 at 4:44 PM

I really enjoyed this. I wish I would have had that opportunity with Jaxson. I do however, remember that with Brady, and it is amazing how quickly they grow. Before you know it.. they are 2, walking, talking, getting into things.. and the baby bump, and little baby rolling around on the ground is gone.

I suppose that is why I am not a pushy mom. I have friends who work endlessly with their kids to talk, walk, crawl.. whatever... but honestly. I know I am going to miss them being so small. Being my BABY, and before you know it. They are no longer babies. So.. I dont push them. I just let them go at their own pace. Sadly with Brady, he was walking at 9 months. I had wished he would have waited longer. Because he just grew up so fast. Now he is 2.5 or nearly that.. wearing 4t. He is a giant. He towers over most kids his age, and sometimes over kids who are a year or two older than him. I miss those days of cuddles.

Lucky for me, I have Jaxson to still cuddle. He obviously is taking his time in the growth dept., which is fine with me. But, I sometimes feel time is passing by so quickly, that I sneak into Brady's room at night. Let out a few tears and cuddle in bed with him. My first baby, is a toddler. Hmmmmm   :o(

Very lovely post.

~Heather