health update

[epcarpenter]

I have not been on here in such a long time. I have so much going on right now it is crazy.

I have been tired and sick of the pain I have been going through for a while now but there is an end in sight. A few months ago I was diagnosed with cervical cancer.  I just got off the phone with my doctor office I will be having my hysterectomy surgery  Nov 10th . I am hoping it is not the 10th seeing that is my birthday but if that is how it has to be that is how it has to be.  I will be in the hospital for two days. The hospital will be either Riverside or the new dublin one.  I am not scared about the surgery. I think I am also over the fact I will no longer be able to bear any more children ever since well there is always adoption. :) I really just want to be healthy.  Here I am at 27 years old already have had  5 surgeries this one will be my sixth.  I swear at this rate by the time I am 70 I will have like 20 plus surgeries....
Lets hope not.
I think my only fear is that since I am a stay a home mom what will we do with the boys??? i am going to be in the hospital for two days.  i am hoping my family steps up and comes to visit to watch them through this. Also fear the aftermath recovery with two very active boys will be hard but RJ will be in school most of the time and the other Ron will be home which is good.

I know that things all happen for a reason and things happen to make us stronger. Nothing comes our way that we can not handle. 

I  also wanted to take a moment and tell all my friends and family that I appreciate your thoughts and prayers. I appreciate you telling me to get a second opinion.  I also appreciate you willingness to help me out. I do not like showing any weakness I like to be considered strong. I think I may have some control issues.  I like to handle things myself but this whole thing has taught me it is ok to slow down and if I need help take it.

I know that this is almost over then I will move on to the next stage in life god has for me.  I will say this BRING IT ON!!!!!!