MY DAUGHTER FOUND ME ON MYSPACE!

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MY DAUGHTER FOUND ME ON MYSPACE!
Oct 14, 2008 at 3:04 PM
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Well, in May I had just started a new job and was coming in at 5am every morning to get my possition all caught up and I logged on one Wednesday monring to my personal email and low and behold I had a message from my MYSPACE telling me that I had a message from Shaypoe.... Now, in the back of my head I am telling myself that there is no way in heck that it could be her but I knew it was. My heart fell to the floor and my mind started spinning and I was all by myself. I seriously think I had my first panic attack. I opened it up and read it over and over. "if you are my birthmom ..... please contact me..... Love, Shay Poe" I fell out crying. The day had finally come! I had prayed for this moment forever. What do I say ???? What do I do? Am I going to scare her away? I mean I was freaking out! I cried and put a post on my myspace for all my friends to see and my girlfriend happen to be on checking her page and saw it and thought it was a joke. You see, I didn't tell hardly anyone because when I was pregnant I was shunned and hidden like it was the freakin 50's or something. My FAMILY didn't know and some of my close friends knew but I kept it inside for ever.

I got to talk to her and we text'd all day long and then she went home and told her parents she had found me and it was full force ever since. I got to meet her and her parents a week later... it was the longest week in my life ... Hers too. But it was worth the wait. Me and her mom, Joan, hugged and just held each other. We cried and kept thanking each other. It was one of the most wonderful days of my life. They are so awesome. I knew that they were supposed to have her right from the beginning because I honestly believe that God spoke to me when I picked them. God just gave me a confirmation when we met. It was the most amazing thing ever next to my kids being born. We sat there and listened intently as we told stories and were shocked that even tho we had been seperated at her birth we were sooooooo much alike. Joan called me the next day and told me that she had bruises on her ankles because every time me and Shay would say something at the same time or laugh or do something like the other her dad, Bob, would kick her under the table. It was funny! It was so surreal and yet it was like we were supposed to be.

Joan and I are very close and we continue to grow closer because of the respect we have for one another and the love we share for Shay. We laugh because people don't and can't understand what we feel and or how we can be so relaxed and carefree about it all. Both families are taking a step back and have had mixed feelings about it all. My parents were not happy at all. Why would they? Their secret they had kept for 18 years was now in the open and I wasn't going to be quiet any longer! I was disowned by my family but I gained a new one with the Poe family. Joan's family is trying to come to grips wth why Shay wanted to seek me out but I know in the end everything will be ok. As long as we stay strong and respect our roles in Shay's life it will be ok.

One of the most amazing things that has come out of this besides meeting Shay is I told my mother exactly how I felt. I couldn't hold it in any longer. I had been suffering from major migraines that were debilitating and horrible. I was throwing blood clots and the doctors couldn't figure out why. I had been hospitalized several times for the most bizarre reasons. After me and my mom had it out I have not had any issues. In fact my doctor wanted to know what the heck had happened because my blood pressure was amazing and I hadn't had a headache in over 3 months! It goes to show you that stess and keeping crap inside can kill you. I will never hold back again!

Shay and I are very close. We talk daily as she is going to college now. My two children are loving that they have a big sister. My husband and his family always knew that this day may come and well, it is here and they have showered her with love. My mother in law is my best friend and she came to meet her and finally understood what all the fuss was about.

I am writing a book about it all because I feel like I need to share this amazing story. I feel like God has played a major role in this from the very beginning. It was very hard being pregnant and being shunned by my family but I would do it all over again if I had too. My life is now complete. Thanks for letting me share my story. I wish all of you can have this kind of experience. I haven't touched the ground since!

I would love to talk to any of you that have questions or comments. My email is : tsamvickers@sbcglobal.net or phone is 281-382-7233

Be Strong and Tell the Story,

Stephanie Vickers

PS:

She found me on MYSPACE in May. It was an open adoption so I got to pick her parents and I wrote to her parents all the time. She had a picture of my son by her bed since she was 13 so she knew my name. She was bored one day and desided to look me up. Poof ... there I was. AND I had just changed my picture to one of me at a party I was shooting and I had someones sun glasses on and a bottle of vodka in one hand and a hot pink boa around my neck.... AND NO I WASN't DRUNK!!!! That is just me... the life of the party. I was trying to make people laugh so they would have fun with me taking pictures. TOO FUNNY! She thought to herself... yep, that is my birthmom... we are two peas in a pod.

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