i miss my husband :(

[armywife814]

well my brother and his fiancee just left and my son is asleep and the house is quiet...probably the only time it has been since my husband left for his deployment...i am really hurting right now....i miss him so much....i miss the little times we had together when my son went to bed and we just sat there and watched tv or laid in the bed and just talked about what went on through the day...he is my best friend and i could never picture myself without him....before in the past i took the little things we did for granted...like going to the store together...or just lounging around the house on a rainy or cold day and how i just wanted to get out of the house...i now find myself missing those times...the precious moments we had together that all of a sudden were just taken away from us by a simple piece of paper that said he was ordered to active duty for the purpose of Iraqi Freedom....i walk through stores and see women with their husband and children by their side and see them arguing over what to buy and what not to buy...and just wish that my husband was there to not argue with me but to just be by myside...i know a lot of women feel the way i am right now and i know we have to tough through this but it is just hard....i see my husband in my sons face and personality eveyday...im so proud of him and what he has accomplished since his daddy left and i just wish that i could freeze them so my husband could see them as well..but i know i cant....there is only so much a camera or video tape can do..but it cant bring back those moments at that specific time...i guess i am just missing him right now and want him home...but i know he cant come home right now....he is doing a job he loves and hates at the same time...i am so proud of him and how he has conquered so many adversities that has come him way...he is my rock and sometimes i just feel lost without him...i am proud to say that i married the man  i was destined to be with and no matter what comes our way or haw far his job takes him away from us...we will always be here waiting for him with open arming and tears running down our face...so to all the women who read this post and are married to military men...we are the silent ranks that nobody sees....the ones left behind when our husbands are called to fight...and to the women who dont know what we go through...please treasure the moments you have with your loved ones...and dont let take one day for granted....be thankful that you are able to have your man by your side because right now i just wish i could have mine...

[spunkymomof3]

Oct. 26, 2008 at 12:53 AM

A Soldier's Wife

By Roxie Dean

Breaking News from a desert town
Smoke and rubble on the ground
The names we do not know right now
And it cuts me like a knife

With a tearful goodbye kiss
I sent him off to this
But I've gotta stay strong for our kids
I'm a soldier's wife

I run the house
I sleep alone
I live for e-mails
And the phone calls home
I tell my children he will be all right
And I hope it's not a lie
I'm a soldier's wife

We do the things we used to do
Go to church, go to school
But you could drive a truck right through
The hole that's in our lives

My little boy shoots me a grin
And says he wants to be like him
And I feel my heart start caving in
I'm a soldier's wife

Sometimes I'm angry
Sometimes confused
I live and die by
The evening news
But I tell my babies he will be all right
And I hope it's not a lie
I'm a soldier's wife

I pray for strength
I pray for peace
I pray that he comes home to me
And if you would please pray for me
I'm a soldier's wife.

 

I am sure you have heard that song before but I thought I would post it.  I am a military wife too, we all have our good days and bad days.  I am here if you EVER need to talk.  You are right we do have to remember that we are the women behind the ranks, we are the ones who sit and wait.  Thinking of you!!

[ThreeFates511]

Oct. 26, 2008 at 12:51 PM

hey girl...man do i feel you...alot now that christmas shopping has started, it's rough...but hang in there, and if you ever need anyone to talk to, i'm here for you!!

[Peytons_Momma]

Oct. 31, 2008 at 7:50 PM

I just wanted to say my husband is deployed right now as well and i have a 3 month old, when he left she was only a month old. and what you wrote just made me cry and it was straight from the heart and it just made my day thak you for that.

[armywife814]

Nov. 1, 2008 at 1:25 PM

your very welcome

(Original Poster)