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Just Random Whining...boobs, uterus and a weird wedding
- Oct 28, 2008 at 10:43 AM
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I just feel like a mess today. I think it may be hormonal...or maybe just stress related.
As most of you know I am having this surgery to remove this "blob" from my boob on the 12th of November. Hopefully this will be the last step of waiting. The waiting is the worst. I do all I can to stay positive and deep down I know, whatever the results, things will be okay, but I am still making myself crazy over this waiting.
I have been having issues for well over a year with my "cycle." I'll spare you the details, but things are not right. At my last OB appointment, he said that I should go on hormone therapy to straighten it out. He said it is perfectly safe. Something about that word "perfectly' that sounded phony to me! I have done research on this and I do not believe it is "perfectly" safe on any level.
I asked what my options were if I chose not to do it. His reply was "Deal with it." So I deal with it. It actually seemed to get a little better for a month or two, but now it is back to horrible. My PCP (who usually thinks very highly of my OB) told me to call him back and tell him I want more options and if he won't give me any, he'll refer me to someone who will. He's not too thrilled about me not being called on mammogram when they found something a year ago too (only the OB got a copy last year).
I've been saying for some time ,maybe I need to switch OB's. He is a fertility specialist, which I clearly no longer need and I only need a GYN, not an OB anyway. Last week when I saw the surgeon (who is also my PCP's wife), her PA asked about my cycles and if I had taken hormones ever, I told her the situation. She immediately said, "He told you to deal with it? You need a new doctor and when this breast issue is resolved we can find a you a new one.." She suggests an ablasion, which I had looked into myself at one point. I'll spare you the details on that one too, but look it up...google "endometrial ablasion". Not too pleasant, but a one time procedure that will most likely cure my issues. She also asked how old my OB was (like 60+) and said his age may be why he doesn't jump on new procedures and falls back on things like hormones.
Anyone know a smart young gyno in West Michigan? Maybe even preferably a woman?
Anyway, didn't mean to turn this into a discussion of my uterus! LOL. I just feel down today, like I want to cry at various tims for no real reason. I actually have to fight it off. I know it is likely hormonal and not sure an abalsion will help this part. I have to do something though....eventhough I know this feeling will only last a few days, it's brutal.
Oh well, one thing at a time. I have to focus on my boobs first, then my uterus, then my marriage (are those in the right order?...maybe not...IDK anymore).
I'm so tired...no matter how much sleep I get, I am still so tired. Also probably hormonal.
Anyway, this wedding. This couple that work with Doug got married at a drive through chapel in Las Vegas last week. First of all this couple tried to hide that they were a couple for a long time for some reason...it was obvious to me when we went to a concert with them back when they were "just friends." Yeah right....
Anyway, they are having a reception at the American Legion Hall on Saturday night. That's fine...I know of people who elope and then have a party later. That's great. But here's the thing....
They decided to make this a 70's themed reception and want people to come in costumes. Doug acts like he didnt live through the 70's and has argued with me every step of the way about what we are supposed to wear (he had an extremely annoyingly sheltered childhood). Tried to even tell me that tye-dye was not 70's. We have tye-dyed shirts we made at Kate's (musikmama) party and I went to the Halloween store and picked up a few extra's. When he argued with me about it I blew.
I screamed at him that I would gladly take him back to the store and show him where it said 70's really big on the display area where I got the stuff. And further more, why would I lie about this stuff when I had to wear it too and I am only doing this for him because I hate (I mean HATE) dressing up in a costume (and also don't particualrly like going to parties where I dont know anyone), especially for a wedding for Pete's Sake and truthfully I'd like to send him on alone and not even go at all. So basically wear what I got and shut the hell up.
He shut the hell up...thankfully.
Since then it is one weird thing after another. They registered at Bed, Bath and Beyond. As far as I could tell online, not one other person had bought anything off the registry. I bought them a nice gift and had it gift wrapped and sent to them. Carla (the bride) comes up to Doug yesterday and says, "We got your gift sent to our house. Aren't you coming to the reception?" She had no clue gifts from your registry get sent to the house. Doug nicely explained this to her and she said, "Oh well, I have never been married before. I thought you brought them to the reception and we open them there."
Then.....she asked Doug what he kind of dish he wanted to bring? Huh? This reception is a POT LUCK! We have wear a costume and bring a dish! Not that I mind, but it is a wedding reception. I really am not a judgemental person AT ALL, but this just seems a little off to me.
Maybe the fact that invitation was by word of mouth should have tipped me off.
I could see if you were having it at a park or a summer barBEque or something, but they rented a hall! Maybe they just realised they couldnt afford the food because she just brought his up yesterday and the wedding is Saturday. IDK, but I have never in my life heard of a costume wearing pot luck wedding reception.
I told Doug he is one more piece of craziness away from going alone. Did I mention I am extremely hormonal right now?
Oh and Norah wet the bed last night.
Okay...thanks for hanging on. I think I got it all out of my system for now.
Comments:
Thanks Gailanne. I just got that email from you about the leaning side. Great prayer idea! Love you too!
Oh Bettie….sheesh. Might have to splurge on a glass of wine or two at THAT reception, lol.
I’m going to look up that procedure, and look at my herbals for things that might help. If you are open to that sort of thing, there is a "wise woman" forum at
www.susunweed.com
and there are VERY knowledgeable women on there who would love to help.
As for a doc, I go to my family doctor for everything now that I don't plan to have more kids. I LOVE her, can't say enough about her.
www.jupiterfamilymed.com
Both women are great, but I see Dr. Lisa Hoekstra. Wonderful, wonderful woman. Did I say she was wonderful yet?
My sister would be more than happy to recommend someone if you'd rather see someone closer to you or who is actually an OB, working in L&D at the hospital and having female issues herself, she knows who's who as far as that around here. Let me know.
HUGS
Hmmm, where to start? Waiting sucks. I'll keep sending positive, healing energy to you. I'd send patience too, but you know I don't have any of that. lol I hope you find a new OB/GYN. Here's a link for a doctor search in Michigan . My aunt's sister Donna who just recently finished her chemo and radiation for breast cancer took hormone replacement therapy for menopause. Just saying...
I'm sure Norah is fine, it happens.
Love you so much and hope you're wrapping your SJ prayer shawl around you to feel a big, warm, loving hug.
Stay inspired!
Kate...well they are having a cash bar and I will PM you about the other stuff.
Michelle...thank you. I am wrapped in that shawl at this very moment...consdiering wearing as a coat when I walk Norah to school, since I have not gotten around to buying a coat yet and it is 34 degrees! At any rate.,...I do feel the hugs whenever I wrap in it.
First of all...an ob/gyn...if you wanna drive over to Holland (and you could swing by and visit me in Zeeland, LOL!)...I have two EXCELLENT recommendations...
Dr. James Gerard
Dr. Mark Lenters
The're at OB/GYN Associates of Holland
They're both AWESOME!!!
Second...that's REALLY different...a potluck/costume reception? LOL! To each their own. LOL! I have to admit...I didn't know they shipped registry gifts to the location...they didn't do that back when I got married eons ago! LOLOLOL! :-) hehe!
Thanks Melody. I think the gift thing came into play more when people ordered gifts off the registry online, maybe. I had been married previously but no wedding. Whne I married Doug I got gifts at home almost every day in the month before the wedding.
Wanna get together and cry over wet beds and spilled milk?! I'm just askin... I am so tired too! I dont know what the deal is. I almost fell asleep going into work yesterday. SO WEIRD! Speaking of weird...um yeah, I'd say that whole wedding thing is WAY WEIRD! The last time someone at Chris' work got married, they held it 200 miles away from anyone, invited ONLY their co-workers...NO SPOUSES..??? WTF?! And they dressed like they were in the middle ages?! What happened to tradition?? Guess Im old fashioned. I have never been in your type of waiting position, but I cant imagine it can be easy. Waiting with you is tough, but to actually wait for that kind of result has to be hard. Use your faith sister. It's there..He's here...I'm here....forever...I'm sorry we arent closer to each other..but then you'd probably be really sick of me in a couple days. LOL. I love you!!
Awww...Mandi, I could never get sick of you!
Betty,
I have never heard of a wedding like this. Then again I have not heard of everything yet (lol) I have a lot of opinions on this, however they are probably better off not said. I am trying to be positve and nice. Try to think of it as a night out. You may end up having a great time. I know I would have a good time talking with you. and by reading what everybody else has written, I think they would have a great time talking with you too.
Brenda
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Even thru all this crap, your humor shines through, hang on to the Lord...I'm praying He props you up on your leanin' side.
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