Puke...

[Mom_2_Boyz]

I am sick of being covered in baby puke.  I am sick of having constant joint pain but being told I am "normal" and/or "healthy".   Oh, and while we are at it, can I mention the muscle pain and weakness, headaches, fatigue, vertigo and "IBS"?  I am sick of feeling so irritable that I would actually consider shoving my 4 yo off the arm of my chair instead of politely asking him to move or, better yet, hugging him.  I want to enjoy holding my baby while I still can.  I want to be able to focus long enough to listen to what my 7 yo has to say.  I want to happily go about my day cleaning my house and interacting with my kids.  I want to loose weight and be happy about it instead of feeling like it is something I "should" do but having no real motivation for it.  I am sick of hearing my husband say "I don't know what to tell you" or to tell me it can all be fixed if I would go walking at the rec center with the 2 yo and the newborn in the cumbersome (not walking) double stroller.  I feel absolutely pissed off or completely apathetic all the time.... nothing else, really.  And my toes hurt... my toes and my elbows, wrists, fingers, hands, knees, back, hips... UGH.

I want to post something on Cafe Mom OTHER than complaining, but it seems to be all I deal with lately.  Don't get me wrong, I can think of 100 good things in my life, but they are not what I deal with or think about 95% of the day and that just sucks.

[MamaOfB]

Nov. 5, 2008 at 3:51 AM

I seriously thuought this was going to be (yet another) post by someone complaining about our new president.  So your complaining was actually a welcome change.  LOL

I'm sorry things aren't going well for you right now.  Just take it one day at a time.  Gaining the weight didn't happen over night, it is going to take some time to lose it.  Do you have a plan/support system?  Have you ever checked out ediets.com?  I know someone who has had success with them.  They even have groups that do weight loss challenges, so they have accountability.  And not that weight loss is the total answer, but it will take pressure off of your aching joints.

Maybe they can't diagnose you b/c it is something like Chronic Fatigue or Fibromyalgia?  I dunno.  Doctors dont know everything.  I'll be praying for you and your physical pain.

 

[mommalady]

Nov. 5, 2008 at 11:10 AM

Aw sweetie, I'm sorry. I went through a bit of post partum depression after I had Meli and was very easily irritated. Maybe you are going through a little bit too? I still have days when I don't think I can handle it. I know it's really hard to do when you are feeling so negative, but try to find something positive every day and try to focus on that. Be proud of yourself for anything you accomplish during the day. I hope you feel better soon. HUGS!!!