life has me a little shook up.

[MythicMMM]

I don't know where to start, but I know I want to cover my best friend, Ronda (formerly known my mother), my brother, and Vermont in this journal.

so my best friend and I were talking on the phone today and I asked her how she felt about having Obama as a president. she said and I quote " it sucks. I never wanted a black man as president so I voted for McCain". now I glossed over it in the conversation and moved to something else, but unfortunately it stuck in my mind as I was walking to the bus stop and I have come to the conclusion that is a fucked up racist thing to say about a half black man to a half black woman. especially if they are your supposed best friend.

we move on to Ronda.. I've decided I am ready to dissown my mum. yes, you heard it. I want to cut ties with this woman that gave birth to me and "raised" me. why? because she seems hell bent upon making me pay for something if not everything that seems to have gone wrong in her life because I was a bad bad child and now I am a bad adult child for moving so far away. I am tired of the emotional abuse she inflicts upon me. it isn't good for me, my son or my relationship with my beau.

now my brother. it is no lie that ever since he was born the emotional abuse and neglect from my mother towards me grew exponentially. not to mention the fact that he truly is her "golden child" that does no wrong in her eyes. when ever it comes down to he or I needing Ronda I am left in the wolves. which has made him become a selfish assholic prick. I feel sorry for what ever woman gets stuck with him.

the time I lived in Vermont is from here on out going to be removed from my "history" of life and the story of my past will from now on go something like this; My mother disappeared when I was 7 and I was raised by my father, aunts, and uncles in East Windsor till I moved to Ohio with my beau Kris.

short, sweet, simple, and a small stretch of the truth since I did live part time in East windsor while I was in VT.

Thank you very much for your time.

[ThaMCE]

Nov. 5, 2008 at 5:12 PM I am so sorry you're going through this. I had to deal with Joe's rude comments about Obama as well. :( When I moved away, my mom was a little bitter, but she got over it. I hope things get better.

[mmtosam06]

Nov. 5, 2008 at 7:18 PM

hugs so sorry your going through this