Well, it has finally happened. One of my worst fears is coming true and there is nothing I can do to stop it. Billy has to go for 90 days of training in March and then he will deploy to Afghanistan in July. Or at least that is what we are being told for now. Just last week they were telling us he would start training in December and deploy in March. But, no matter when it will actually happen, he will be leaving us. We do know that he will be gone for a year, and the position he will be taking is suppose to be a safe one, but that doesn't make it any easier to deal with. It took me almost a week, but I can finally get through the day without crying every 30 seconds. However, nights are a real bitch. last night I watched Billy getting ready for work and realized that in just a few months, I won't be able to do that for 12 more months. He'll be thousands of miles away and I won't be able to talk to him when ever I want to let alone see him everyday. i know I could probably throw a real fit over all this, but I know too that it wouldn't do any good. It's not like he can say no, when the country calls, he has to go. It's all part of being in the Army. Of course I knew too when I married him that the chances of him being called to active duty were really high. It doesn't make me love him any less, if anything, it makes me love him more. It makes me cherish each day, each minute we have together more. It makes me appreciate each word, look and touch more than before, because all too soon they will be gone.

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Nov. 26, 2008 at 3:23 PM

I am in the same boat as you are. My hubby and I are fixing to go through our first deployment. I cried for a very long time when i first found out, and sometimes i cry whenever i talk to someone about it. I also knew this before i married him. He is going through training in may and leaving in july going to Iraq. I wish you the best of luck and GOD BLESS. People really dont know how hard we have it as well as our soldiers fighting for us each and every day. They think that the soliders have it bad and not the families that they leave behind. It is hard on everyone. I am here for you and maybe we can talk each other through alot of this.

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Feb. 2, 2009 at 10:54 PM

Hi I just came across your page and seen your An Army wife so i read this. Well Im not a wife but i am a soldier. I know how it is to be with out the ones you love. I have 2 boys and my husband. And I know all about the crying for days knowing you wont see them for long times at a time. I got the orders last year of the 2nd time that i was going to be leaving. I couldnt talk about anyting without crying. it wasnt bc i was scared or the fact that i just didnt want to go. But i didnt wanna leave my 2yr old little boy. I have this feeling its going to be my time again very soon and this time I will be leaving My wonderful Husband and 2 boys this time. Im not ready for it.  But i know its going to.   Sorry for dragging on and I just wanted you to know out that its hard for us to be with our loved ones too.... Im crying thinking about it.... I know its hard for you not having him but also think how hard it is for him. How many of you he has to miss and think about.... I know youll miss him but just be proud of him.... Sorry for going on and on... Good night .... Candie K.

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Apr. 19, 2009 at 12:04 AM

This is so many years ago for me my husband is retired from the military- Viet Nam twice 14 months each time and other seperations; when my husband was gone I would go back to school and the children and I would go everywhere together; to parks, the zoo, movies.. The time doesn't go faster but it helps to be occupied as much as possible.

I hate to tell you lots, of tears and loneliness... But the homecomings are wonderful. If you can try to save enough money for an evening for just the two of you (get a baby sitter); when he comes home go to a favorite concert (or what ever it is you enjoy together) and hotel...

All military families are in my thoughts and prayers. If you need someone to talk with I'm here.


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Jun. 13, 2009 at 11:10 PM

im with you. were surviving our first one. they say each deployment can either make you or break you. i think this one had made us, we actually are closer now. i hope the same happens for you. it might not seem like it, but, it yall are strong enough to weather this, then this will only make you stronger. mine comes back soon, well relatively soon. and through this deployment, we have all kinds of stress from hell and back, if you need anyone to talk to, im here always, us army wives have to be there for each other.

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