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Diggin' cause they're here...
- Nov 9, 2008 at 10:07 PM
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Allow me please to pause for one moment for a sip of my ice cold diet coke. I need to wipe this sweat from my brow, straighten my tiara, and keep digging (with my pink shovel) for the blessings, cause THEY'RE HERE! Oh, they're hiding, and playing silly games, but they're here....
I had a tough day. I did.
1. We went over to Nana's house this morning to help her move a few things around, hang some pictures, and deliver some things of hers that we had in our garage.
While I was there, she only had the dark side of EVERYTHING to point out. With every ugly comment, horrid projection, and tragic recounted memory, I said something NICE...
Such as?
She talked about the depression, and compared it to today's economy and insisted that soon they'd be rationing food, and that it'll be the best diet I ever went on...
"Everything will be OK, Nana...you've survived SO much more than these crappy times of today".
She talked about the noise that kept her up last night and how "the damned tree trimmers never trimmed the damned tree".
"I'll call the damned office tomorrow Nana", I said softly.
She complained about the noise the paramedics made while she tried to sleep on the couch after the "damned tree" kept scratching against her window. Yeah, apparently the lady next door to her was taken away in an ambulance last night; damn those inconsiderate paramedics who were trying to help her, you know? the nerve of them being so loud...
Finally, when she said, "Im gaining weight; I notice you are, too. It's not in our blood to be thin in our family, I guess".
"NO, I guess not! Wanna go for pie?" I asked.
I feel blessed to have hung onto my power and light the way I did.
Cant get me today, Lady....nuh-uh. Sorry.
2. Im nuts.
I headed out to the car tonight to run someplace, and realized I forgot my jacket...
I went back to get my jacket, but the front door was locked. It was cold, I knocked, then felt tears well up in my eyes.
I WAS CRYING CAUSE THE DOOR WAS LOCKED?
Yeah. I was crying cause the door was locked. It was also cold, and I had to pee.....and, there was a monster, chasing me...with a booger...and he was huge, and ....hairy with a low growl, and...
ok, I was just locked out, and over emotional. There was no monster. I have no real explanation for the crying spells.
Im just...."off".
The blessing???
Dh felt sorry for me, and went to get me pumpkin pie.
3. I have so much going on, that I don't know where to start. I cant even comprehend where to start first, and the load feels heavy, scary and overwhelming.
The blessing? Im strong enough to carry the load. I will figure how to balance it, and this will take some practice, but I AM strong enough to carry it if I SO CHOOSE TO.
And, I think I choose to...it's only temporary.
4. My plans for a Boutique for Toys for Tots is falling away, piece by piece...it's made me SO FRUSTRATED.
The blessing? I have faith that there are other intentions for my time, energy, and effort.
5. I really don't feel all that well tonight.
And, tomorrow is a new day.
(What a blessing).
xo
Comments:
im sorry hun! I have some ideas for you. please call me tomorrow. Ive had one hell of a weekend too :)
love ya lots
I'm sorry you had a bad day. I've had plenty of those! Hey, if you give me a spare key to your house I'll come let you in whenever you get locked out....I'll bring the pie....
Love you, Sweetie! By the way, your Christmas gifts are sitting here ready to be mailed. I can't wait for you to get them. Love in every stitch!
Love you!
How inspiring you are. Thanks for sharing with everyone. You have made me think of my blessing when 5 minutes ago I was complaining about having to wait to long in at KFC. At least I had a warm car to wait in and money to buy the KFC, that I did not need. It's so refreshing to hear all the blessings that you can find in an otherwise miserable day. Thank you so much, You have helped me more than you will ever know.
Elle, my darlin, you are a ray of sunshine in your own world and thank God hubby took pity on you and bought you pie. It doesn't matter why you were crying. You are woman. We roar, we cry!! We also love and I love you. I'm hoping this week will be the best yet for you.. Hang in there. All days aren't like today...
You had a tough day.....no doubt...you did start it with:
"We went over to Nana's house this morning" -- oh my....I guess you did, Sweetie! But, you are right...everything will fall into place as it should, given time. Hope you sleep well and that tomorrow is a much better day!! xo
Oh, honey, I'm glad you finally had a cry...*sigh*. Feel better, honey.
"Bloom where you're planted" doesn't happen without the nitrogen from lightning or some rain now & again.
Sending you love & hoping you wake up feeling all pretty & strong & wonderfully confident about a brand new day.
Hugs...Ceci
I know you just gotta go see your Nana every once in a while and she gives you plenty to write (gripe?) about, but try to limit those visits for your own sanity, if you can.
I will try to call you tomorrow some time, I've had a nice weekend with my husband and he will be working tomorrow, so I will be able to really talk.
Hugs!!!
I LOVE YOU LOTS !! I hope that helps alittle..
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Oh Elle - I'm sorry you had a rough day. I did too! (It's amazing you can count your blessings)..I have Emmy doing it now too because she was being so negative and sassy the last few days. Even if I can't count my own, I help her count hers.
I'm sick too. Cough, run-down, depressed...the works. I'll try and call you tomorrow. Hang in there.
- Jakemmy
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