Anybody?

[PosterOfAGirl]

Does anyone else feel like natural selection is out to get them? I do!

My mom is now worried that I have Multiple Sclerosis. If you don't know, my mom was diagnosed when I was 6. I told her about my leg problem that I've had for a while. I kind of just ignored it forever because it seemed like no big deal to me, being that I had way more pressing issues in my health. My leg is constantly cold, but warm to the touch. I think it's really all in the muscle, it's cold, it itches, and it tingles. A friend in one of my groups mentioned her leg being like this and it ended up being a blood clot, I don't think I have a blood clot because it's been this way for almost 2 years.

But it's progressively getting worse. It's creeping down my entire leg, and now my feet are constantly freezing. I didn't think much of it. The minute I mention it to my mom on the phone a few minutes ago she started crying. I guess that's the exact thing that made her go to the doctor when she was diagnosed so long ago. She said she'd rather die than any of her children get MS.

Now I'm fucking scared shit-less. If it's not that, it's that my chondra malachia is so bad that my legs are turned out so much from my hips that the nerve is constantly impinged. In order to feel totally balanced I have to stand on the outside of my feet with the insides of my feet off of the ground. My legs and knees constantly hurt.

And this is the least of my worries, unless of course it is MS, which then I'm doomed.

I can' t afford all the co-pays to go to the doctors. So I must sit and wait and think. Yippee. I love days like this.

[JoyeAustin]

Nov. 13, 2008 at 1:48 PM

Staci, good god!

I smoosh you with love. I smoosh you with love. Smoosh smoosh.

[mom0f3angels]

Nov. 13, 2008 at 1:53 PM

Smooshing you along with Joye!!

I know how it is with Co-pays. I need to get two meds. I can't get them even at $15...a piece! I can't afford them yet. Atleast they are not for life-threatening problems. Though I feel like I am going to scratch my skin off (ezema all over) and that I will cough my lungs out my mouth (from quitting cigs).

Keep us in the know, ok?

[MelanieLouise]

Nov. 13, 2008 at 1:56 PM

I'm smooshing too!! I love you Staci, and this string of shit will slow and stop soon enough!!!

[PosterOfAGirl]

Nov. 13, 2008 at 2:07 PM

Thanks guys.

I really hope so Mel. I can't handle much more. I'm just ready to be somewhat sane, things just keep getting in the way. I don't want to be crying anymore. Or at least I want to cry happy tears.

I wish you all could smoosh me with love IRL.... but instead internet smooshing will have to do :)

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