When it rains, the floodgates open

[momma503]

I have been out of work for 6 months now. At first, it was by choice. Then it became a matter of there are no jobs available. So our finances went downhill and we were forced to give up one of our car payments or lose the car to repo. My MIL took the car and the payment because she needed a vehicle herself. Well, that left us with one vehicle which my husband used to go to work. That left me with no transportation. So then my not working was a matter of being stuck at home, unless I found a job working in the tiny little town I live in so I could walk. Well, there's like 4 places to work here and none of them have been hiring. I did put in applications just in case. Nothing so far. So things have steadily been getting worse and now, a month before Christmas and just as winter is about to hit, my husband lost his job. So now we have NO income instead of just barely enough. He will go to the unemployment office on Monday, but it will be at least 3 weeks before he gets a check, and that's only if his former employer doesn't fight it. And it wouldn't surprise me if they did because they're a bunch of assholes. They didn't like DH because he's not a brown-nosing ass kisser so they found some bogus excuse to fire him. Right after he missed 3 days of work due to being bit by a brown recluse spider and his life was potentially at stake. He used up the last of his vacation time for doctor's appointments and we spent a lot of money on copays and prescriptions, so now we can't even pay our house payment, which is due today. He will get one more paycheck, but only one week's worth. That's out Jeep payment and then we've got nothing. Just as all the monthly bills start pouring in again. I'm still looking for a job but I honestly don't know what we're going to do. If one of us doesn't find something pronto, we will lose everything. Our son was already on the verge of not getting much for Christmas. Now it looks like he won't get anything. And that hurts my feelings more than anything. He deserves so much better and I feel like we are failing him miserably. All because some jackass where my husband worked thought it would be fun to get him fired. I just want to hurt that rat bastard... really hurt him. The kind of hurt that's illegal to inflict on a person. But I'm really no good to my family if I'm in jail. But still, it would make me feel better. There are just some things in life I have no conscience about. Retaliating against some fucker who has nothing better to so than ruin people's lives doesn't fall under the heading of "things to feel bad about" as far as I'm concerned. I figure he'll get his eventually. That would be karma.

I just hope that something turns around soon for us. I can't let my boy go without heat or food or a place to live. I just feel so lost right now. We've never been in this situation before and I don't know what to do. I know this happens to people all the time, I just don't know how they manage when it does. I wish I knew the answer. Finding a job is a lot easier when there are jobs to find. This sucks.

I need to go, I have to get DH out of bed. He has some calls to make. If anyone has any suggestions, advice, whatever, they are all welcome. I'll take anything at this point. Thanks for reading.

[debmom07]

Nov. 15, 2008 at 10:39 AM

there is public assistance availble for people in case such as yours. there is help gettign toys too. i hope things look up soon. I iwill say a prayer for u.