Life is complicated

[Lilglowy]

I'm not really sure where to even begin. It is quite a long story and I apoligise in advance if it gets confusing. I moved up to Warrensburg with a friend of mine named Caleb. We were friends long before I moved in with him. We started dating shortly after I moved. I got pregnant in August and things went really well for a while. Then, i guess everything hit me at once. I got homesick and wanted to go see my grandma, Caleb took that as me running away. He also thought that i wasn't going to come back. So he decided to do some thinking of his own and he decided that he didn't want me up there anymore. He said that he isnt sure if he loves me, or if it is just the baby. It hurts knowing that he is contemplating our relationship. It hurts more that i can't be there with him now. I am 2 hours away with my family. He wants me to stay here till I have the baby in May, then he wants me to come back up there to work things out. I think it would be easier to work things out before the baby comes, but that is his choice. So, as the title of this journal states, life is very complicated...