I went in for my 1st ultrasound today.  According to my lmp I am measuring at 6wks2d.  The tech & dr were concerned though...the heartbeat is only at 80bpm. The norm is 120bpm.  I've done some research tonight and the outlook isn't too pretty.  Matt seems optimistic and thinks everything will be fine.  I, on the other hand saw the drs face....   I am scheduled for another u/s next Tuesday to (and Iquote) "To see if the baby's heartbeat reaches a normal rate or stops."   Yeah....that gives me hope.  I am so crushed by this, and so tired of people telling me that I'm lucky to have the children I have now.  Of course I'm always grateful for everything I have, especially my children...but that doesn't make this any easier on me.  I was sooo worried to go in for my u/s today, I guess I had the feeling all along.  I'm trying to think of the positive things though...I am nauseous in the morning and in the evening, I am bloated and gassy, and I'm breaking out.  Hopefully my hcg levels will be good, and most of all I hope this little one is a fighter and fights to stay with us. Oh, and by the way....my little blob is beautiful!  =)

 

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Mommy2AJ
Dec. 3, 2008 at 9:56 AM

Well, I do hope that things turn around for you! I think it is pretty cruel that someone would tell you to just be lucky you have the children you already do. A mother of 5 does not and should not love her unborn child any less than a mother of 1. I do have to say that when I found out I was pregnant at 6 weeks, I had low hcg levels and the heartbeat was low. The doctors thought the baby was going to miscarry. It just turned out that his heart hadn't been beating for that long so his heartrate wasn't up to what it should be. Their hearts don't start beating at 120 bpm, it has to get up to that. I hope everything works out and that it is just that his or her heart has just started beating not too long ago. :)

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metal...
Dec. 3, 2008 at 11:21 AM

I'm sorry hun :(  But keep thinking positive.  Doctors tend to prepare for the worst case scenario first....it's their job, and they have to tell you all the possibilities.  If they are prepared for the worst, then there's a better chance they can prevent it...but it doesn't always turn out that way.  When I had surgery years ago, my doctor went on and on about how all the signs pointed to me having cancer....it turned out I didn't, and I was mad that he freaked me out that much, but then again, I do realize it is their job to consider every possibility just in case.

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Metal...
Dec. 3, 2008 at 11:45 PM

I can't even imagine the stress and worry you have right now!  I'm very glad you have a husband who is so involved and is helping to keep you positive.  I agree with what Mommy2AJ said- it could just be because it's so early in the pregnancy.  A lot can definitely change!  At least the heart IS beating, and that "beautiful blob" is there!!!  :)

Try to relax, stay strong, and best wishes to you and your family!

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willi...
Dec. 4, 2008 at 2:39 PM

I am sure your little one's heart just started beating too! I know just how you feel, as so as you find out you are Pg it's like you fall in love again! All you thing about is your new little one! As hard as it can be, try to stay strong and think positive! Don't let what anyone else say get to you!

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