Happy Birthday, Mom

[KylesMom409]

Today would've been my mom's 58th birthday and of course, she is ALWAYS in my thoughts, but even more so on December 8th.  I wish that she was still here, if only to see Kyle and what a great grandson he is.  I know she is in a better place but it still feels as if  the chance to live a full life got taken away from her.  She'll be gone 4 years this coming August and I miss her SO much.  I used to get annoyed when she'd call 2, sometimes 3 times a day but now I'd give ANYTHING to hear her voice again.  She and I had some really rough times back after I graduated high school and we were always at odds with each other.  I'm just glad we mended fences LONG before she passed away.  She was sick for such a long time (11 years) so in that respect, I am glad she is no longer suffering.  But I wish I could just see her one more time, give her one more hug, and introduce her to Kyle.  I DID feel her presence in the delivery room 20 months ago and I feel I couldn't have gotten through it without her watching over me. 

So happy birthday Mom, and I hope you and Grandma are throwing one heck of a party up there!  Kyle and I love you, and we'll see you when it is our turn! 

[singedwingangel]

Dec. 8, 2008 at 6:39 AM

I am so sorryf or your loss. Today is my birthday as well, I have never really liked it since John Lennon was shot on this day, kinda put a damper on it.  I understand missing those who have not gotten to see our children, feels like we got robbed especially if we have sisters or other family members that had kids who enjoyed their presence. For me it was my memaw, I always wonder what she would have thought of my kids. But the thing that helped me deal with it was she was in heaven when God hand made adn chose my children. I know she was there with my child as a member of my family and she was the first to hold my boys, kiss my boys and tell my boys all the little secrets she knew about me. So in a way she was their angel before they were mine.. I hope that helps that when you kiss your child you are kissing your mom as well cause she whispered in their ears that eacvh of their hugs was one from her toyou as well.