Missing my brother!

[1littleangel81]

I find it hard to much of anything fun anymore. Unless it invovles my children. I never knew it could hurt so much. i made him a  myspace page and i find myself staring at it, looking at his pics and listening to the music i put on it! Christmas is coming up and i am excited but sad at the same time. it is very confusing. I try everyday to just keep moving but some days are worse than others and i do is cry.

His wife now has another boyfriend, she doesn't wear his ring and when she moved in an aprt. with this guy who is Garys' friend, she didn't bother to take anything with her of his! I am upset about that! How can you say that you loved someone so much and 5 months later, after he died, start dating someone else and move in with them? I don't understand!

Thanksgiving was not really good- my family didn't even get together, my father was working overseas, mom went to Flordia, and my other sister and brother went to there inlaws, so i cooked my own dinner! I did enjoy being with my kids and hubby! His dad came over long enough to eat say hey and left! Lovely huh? Oh well!

i figured that i would go see my brother and et him something for Christmas before going to my parents house! It will be really hard on all of us!

I guess it will get better with time? i don;t know forsure though!