SOOOO FRUSTRATED!!!

[EileenMomGranny]

I was feeling sooooooooooooo FRUSTRATED this morning, with a situation we've been trying to deal with now for a couple of weeks. Obviously we are not able to understand whatever it is this person is trying to tell us. I am so frustrated with the directions we have been given and followed...  and then are told it's not really what was meant and we are running out of time on this project.

I was screaming and angry, growling. Crying in frustation. At home. To myself and to God. Praying for help in how is the best way THROUGH this situation. Just to get me through this with my sanity and teach my son how to deal with this life stituation.

God reminds me very persistantly and genlty NOT TO BE JUDGMENTAL. This has been the major theme in our household and lives for the past several months. Learning to recognize it when it pops up and choose NOT to go there. Don't make accusations. Don't call names. Don't slap labels on someone. (2 Timothy 3:16-17, Genesis 1:26-27, Ephesians 6:10-12, Matthew 5:21-22, Matthew 18:21-35 NIV, 2 Peter 1:3-4 NLT, Matthew 19:26 ) That it's really bad FOR ME to dwell there.  Of course I need to honestly experience and express (confess to God) how I'm feeling. Not going back into denial either. So I can get through my feelings. Not stuck in them. No longer captive, but free (John 8:31-32, Isaiah 61:1-4)

So, I go back the written directions again, read everything carefully. Still don't see where we did anything wrong. BUT I did discover that we have a week instead of 2 overly busy days to get this done (THANK GOD). This knowledge relieved A LOT of my stress.

Then I open up one of the devotional emails I got (from yesterday but didn't get to until this morning, God's timing is PERFECT!!!)

This is God's message to me, putting it all into perspective: (copy/pasted straight from it)

 Fear Not!

He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.

Psalm 91:4-6 NIV

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I, even I, am he that comforteth you: who art thou, that thou shouldest be afraid of a man that shall die, and of the son of man which shall be made as grass;

Isaiah 51:12 KJV

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But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:37-39 NASB

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From six calamities he will rescue you;
in seven no harm will befall you.

In famine he will ransom you from death,
and in battle from the stroke of the sword.

You will be protected from the lash of the tongue,
and need not fear when destruction comes.

You will laugh at destruction and famine,
and need not fear the beasts of the earth.

For you will have a covenant with the stones of the field,
and the wild animals will be at peace with you.

Job 5:19-23

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The LORD is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?

The LORD is the strength of my life;
Of whom shall I be afraid?

When the wicked came against me
To eat up my flesh,

My enemies and foes,
They stumbled and fell.

Though an army may encamp against me,
My heart shall not fear;

Though war may rise against me,
In this I will be confident.

Psalm 27:1-3 NKJV

I have to laugh with delight in my Lord! (Psalm 37:4) Thank you GOD!! You are so good to me. We will be fine. And we will get through this.  (John 16:33) (John 10:10)

I will choose to abide in peace, joy, love, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control. (Gal 5:22-23) I choose to abide in God (John 15:4-5)

shalom shalom!!

[EileenMomGranny]

Dec. 9, 2008 at 12:21 PM

UPDATE: God is so good to me through this!! As we have continued to talk to each other, and to pray through this, it looks like we may have the beginnings of a workable solution. This is such a HUGE relief. And then our pastor just talked with me and prayed with me over this situation, and I am feeling so much better now.  Still dealing with the emotional fall out. In a way, this is the hardest part for me. To be sad. To feel. To know this is ok and that we will get through it. To honor my feelings and respect them. Gifts from God. Amen.

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