I really hate the Marine Corps

[mauspond]

I can't believe this is happening.  I mean, we knew it was a possibility, but a very slim one.  My husband was selected for Warrant officer, which is wonderful...it's what he has wanted and worked so hard for.  We knew after TBS he would be getting new orders, but he was pretty much told he could stay right here at Lejeune.  We just bought a house, my parents just moved down here to be closer to us now that my dad is sick and he got orders to Pendleton (in California).  I am so upset right now I literally feel like throwing up.  What in the hell are we supposed to do?  I don't want to sell our house, I love it.  We could rent it out, but I really don't want to take the chance of someone destroying it.  And I just can't leave my parents right now.  Granted, my dad is doing much better, but we know its just a matter of time before his cancer returns and what if I was over there when that happened?  I would never forgive myself if something happened and I wasn't here.  Especially since they moved down here to be with us.  On the other hand, I have just done basically 3 years by myself, I don't know if I can do it all over again.  His orders are for 2 years, and the first year he would be deployed, so there would be no point to us going over and after he returned there would be no point in moving for a year.  I am just so sick with this, what in the hell are we going to do?  He has already missed so much of the kids lives, he's missed Corey palying tball and the twins growing up.  How can we sacrifice 2 more years?  I know that it is a part of being in the miliitary, but I don't know if I can do it anymore.  Normally I love the miiltary life, it's been so good to us but I can't do this anymore!  What are we going to do?  There is no chance of him getting his orders changed, everyone in his MOS is getting sent to the West coast, there are no openings here.  The one opening that he thought he had got taken away.  I'm sorry, I just really need to vent, I am so upset.  And I feel bad because I am so angy he feels like I'm mad at him when I know that he has no choice in the matter.  He always tries to look at the positive side of things, but I just can't see one here.  I'm angry as hell and I can't just hold it in.  I cannot be a single mom again.

[Snowbug925]

Feb. 17, 2009 at 7:32 AM

I just read this, and i'm hoping you feel better :)  My heart goes out to you sweety!