todays just another day

[ExpectingEbani]

Todays just another day. I hate my job still, yet it helps us deal with the economy. I dont have to pay daycare because I work from home. So why do I complain, I  have one less stress then a lot of other families. I hate sitting in this house all day. To make it worse, we live in the ghetto, Literally. We are moving Feb 1st so i should be happy. I should start packing and organizing but what do i do i sit here depressed. Depressed about my weight, size, looks, everything. I get up out of bed because I love my duaghter and I want to do it for her. So today I decided I am not going to be depressed no more, I am looking for a new job, possibly opposite shifts from my so that way we dont pay for daycare or a minimal amount of daycare. Also, I decided tomorrow starts the first day of my long journey of dieting. I know losing 70 lbs isnt going to happen overnight, but I wish it would. I plan to start of at 2 lbs a week and work my way up to possibly 3 lbs a week. I hope my depression goes away, I hope I can be happy again. I took my daughter to the park for the first time the other day and it felt great. She LOVED the baby swings! My daughter is my world and she is my motivation. this probably makes no sense but oh well. its off my chest.