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the saddest day of my life.
- Dec 12, 2008 at 9:20 AM
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Yesterday, i went to a wake at a funeral home for the first time in my entire life. I am 21 years old.... never been to ANYTHING like this.
It was for my boyfriends cousins son, who we are pretty close to their family.
Her son... Tristan (r.i.p.) was only a month old. He died from SIDS. as you can imagine i was shaking like crazy looking at that poor helpless little body laying so peacfully in the tiniest little casket.. he was only a month old, but so chubby and heathly looking, even though he was born premature... he was about the same size as my youngest daughter alexis.
i was trying so hard to hold my composure and be strong, for the family... i wanted to just break down. i have heard of SIDS before but, never has it hit so close to us.
We had both our kids with us at the wake, i know its not a place for babies, but, we didnt have a sitter... Julian is usually so wild, and although we didnt bring him where everyone was a bit teary eyed, he did sense the sadness and for a while he was very calm and just looking around... he didnt know what was really going on thank god... and after a while he just walked around smiling at everyone. Alexis was just the happy little baby she always is.
everyone seemed so happy we brought them, because they are such happy babies, with no worries.... like they made everyone smile, and when alexis would smile they were reminded of Tristan when he smiled, and then they would all get happy.... it was odd to me, because i thought for sure that it would have been a bad idea to bring the kids, but it turned out it was a good idea
going here just made my boyfriend and i realize how lucky we are, and make us appreciate our kids THAT much more... i mean, we always said we were lucky and we have great kids, but, after this i feel like i never said it enough. im still shaking and tearing up thinking of the way his mother, so young, was told she could never have babies... and then this happens. he was so healthy, he was a happy little baby...
i just cant imagine how she must feel.
i just had to type and get this off my chest.
r.i.p. tristan
born 10-23-08
born to eternal life 12-08-08
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that is so very sad. sorry you and your family had to go through something like that. and it is also sad that it takes something like that for all of us to realize how lucky we are and what having a little life like that truely means. now he is the angel he was born to be. god bless
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