As I watched you dance tonight

Upon that lighted stage

I realized what you've become

My eyes can see so clearly

A mirror image

My heart and souls desire


I feel guilty when I stare

While it's you I see

There are times I wish so deeply

I wish that he was there


I see your hair

It's golden brown, with curly locks like mine

I see your eyes

Inherited the deepest shade of brown

I see your stature

You stand so tall, so proud

I hear your voice

So deep, so loud

The man you are becoming

Confident and loving


I love your hugs and kisses

I love your thoughtful ways

I can't express these feelings

My soul reaching through my heart

I do however love ALL the things you share

Everything about you is carried in my heart


At times however in my mind



These can't be denied

In my mind you've become him;

The child that I miss

Every look upon your face

Reminds me of my loss

Every hug

From your arms to my embrace

Reminds me of that love

I lost


You ache for love I can't express

I don't know if I provide

I feel ashamed

I'm saddened

I can not erase

All the thoughts

Of how I tried to easily replace

An infant, child, boy

And the man you are becoming


I love you deeply with all my heart

My love is yours for all of time, this I won't deny

It scares me when I think of you, for he never leaves my mind

I wish at times that I could see you

For whom you truly are

My soul's creation, my life, my light

My child, my boy

My Son


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Dec. 12, 2008 at 4:01 PM

Wow.  This is so beautiful

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Dec. 12, 2008 at 5:27 PM

what a transparent poem

i think some would never 'admit' some of these thoughts and feelings

you've painted this picture so well

i wish it wasn't marred w/ the loss


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Dec. 13, 2008 at 12:03 AM

I can't stop crying. You said it all. It's the same with mine. Exactly. Oh, my gosh, you put it all into words, yes I feel it the same, you are not alone. I try to wish it away, the feelings. "appreciate what you have" I tell myself. One doesn't replace the other.:( I hate all of this.

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