Step away from Youtube and no one gets hurt

[FrogSalad]

I know that some of you ladies are about my age so you may have heard of the band Big Country.  I fell in love with them in 1983 when their first album came out.  In the years before the internet it was difficult to keep up with what they were doing or if they were still even a band since they never had much airplay in the U.S. after the song "In a Big Country."  But I was hooked on 'em.

Over the years, I'd hear an occasional song by them, or run across a record in second-hand store and then I'd know they were still out there playing great guitar-driven rock-n-roll.  So over the course of about 20 years I collected all their records (now cassettes and cd's) and after having a good portion of my music collection stolen during a cross-country move, re-collected all but one cd and a few EP's that I think are out of print now or were never released as cds.

As always, I seem to be a day late in figuring out that their videos and concert footage might be on YouTube so last week I went a-searching and found tons of stuff which is great for me but there is a downside:  the lead singer/songwriter died in 2001 and now whenever I see him singing I get so sad that it's almost unbearable.  I never had this issue when just listening to the songs; there's something about seeing him sing and reading the comments other fans have left that is shattering.  And yet, I can't seem to stop myself from watching these videos. 

What the hell is wrong with me?  Jeez.  I tried to explain to my MIL and she said, "Nostalgia."  Which kind of pissed me off because her tone was so dismissive and not at all what I think I'm feeling:  it's not that I want to return to the past, I just wish the guy wasn't so stupid as to get himself killed.

Ah well, what to do but wallow some more and then put them on the shelf for a year or two and then "rediscover" them again.