4 Weeks

[Katrinka_Renee]

Today you're four weeks old, and already I don't remember life without you. It's like we've always known each other- as though we're old friends.

I love watching you grow even though it makes me sad that our first month together has come and passed. You spend more time awake now and I enjoy watching you explore your universe. It's amazing to me that you know nothing of the sadness in the world beyond your momentary want for food, sleep, a clean diaper or attention. I'm glad that for now the world seems like a very safe and happy place as it meets your simple needs.

Today you showed me that you know my face. You were born knowing my voice, and your Dad's voice, but today you looked at me and recognized my features before I made a sound. I thought my heart might stop when you set your tiny baby eyes on mine so instinctively. Seeing my face was enough for you to know that you didn't need to cry anymore, that soon you'd have what you needed.

I'm still a little intimidated by the idea that your self esteem and general view of the world is my responsibility. I'm a little scared, but you make me feel strong.

Each time I think, "this is the happiest moment of my life, it can't get any better" you prove me wrong. I am so thankful for you. You are the single most beautiful thing in this universe that you still find so safe and happy. When the most joyful moments of my life come I try to memorize them as quickly as I can so that I don't ever forget. I know now that these moments will be too numerous to remember each one and that realization is the single most wonderful Christmas gift I've ever received.

[lisa89j]

Dec. 16, 2008 at 1:21 AM

Nothing like that good ol' baby magic!