a guttural noise

[Lazarat]

I feel so pissed..I am just full hate and venommm...I don't know if I am just being premenstrual or what...I want to fight someone..beat them til my hands bleed, their face swollen and bloodied..like I am full of this hot steaming thing.... fermenting from between my stomach and chest...I want to kick and punch something...til the screaming inside me subsides...scream and yell until I cannot breath...scream and yell until I tire...I want to destroy something, fight someone til I am not the only one hurting and angry anymore...I want to be free...I feel trapped and hopeless...I feel my angst tilting me to an endless sleep...I just feel so angry...a guttural noise building and building in my stomach....a caged animal getting ready break free...destroying the very thing that is keeping it captive..

[2soon]

Dec. 16, 2008 at 2:26 PM

I hope u feel better soon. I was feeling this way not to long ago as well. When u are ready to talk hit me up maybe talking about it would help. Keep your head up.