One Week till Christmas

[mommy9]

Well it is one week till Christmas and my babies aren't home yet.  My heart hurts because I want to hold them so badly.  They will spend another Christmas in foster homes and residential centers.  It makes me sick to my stomach. 

I am so thankful that Jesus has given them to me.  I know that I am so very blessed to be their mommy.  Not many people are chosen to parent 12 children.  All I can do is praise Jesus for the blessing.  I don't understand the ways of God by any means.  It just seems that them being home already would be the right thing, but evidently it isn't.  I trust Him and am excited to see what He has planned.  Whenever they come home the tree will be up and their presents will be waiting.  Their family will be more than excited to welcome them home.  We will receive the one thing we all want more than anything, our little ones home with us.

I don't want you all to think this is a sad post.  In some ways it is.  I can't stop the tears from welling up in my eyes when I think of Christmas without them.  The fact of the matter is though that Jesus is the only real reason for Christmas and is Who my family will be celebrating.  Jesus was born for us and for the redemption of our sin.  He was the first Christmas gift!  He is worthy of all praise!  If that is all He had done then it would be amazing, but He didn't stop with coming to save us.  He wasn't just born, He died, and then HE ROSE AGAIN!  He is our LIVING SAVIOR!  I praise His name for that.

Then if all He did was save us, that would be incredible.  HE DIDN'T STOP THERE THOUGH.  He chose to work in our lives every day.  He chose to bless me with 8 children by adoption, 1 child by birth, and 3 more already placed in my heart and awaiting placement for their adoptions.  He is the reason that I can survive the holiday without them, knowing that He is with them and loved them before I knew that they existed.  He chooses each day to bless all of us in so many ways that we can't even imagine.  Each breathe we draw is purely because of His blessing.  Each laugh, giggle, hug, kiss, and smile is made possible by Him.  Each tear, broken heart, longing, and prayer is never forgotten by my Loving Lord. 

So yes Jesus, I may shed some tears during this holiday because of missing my babies so much.  I still PRAISE YOU!  I wil not stop Praising YOU!!  YOU are worthy of more praise than I can give and without Your Grace my praise wouldn't even be worthy of being spoken.  I thank You for the gift of Yourself that You gave.  I praise you for my family, friends, husband, church family, and most of all my children - all 12 of them.  I pray that you bless my babies who are here and especially those who are far away.  Help them feel my love in their hearts even though they don't know me yet.  Prepare them for our family and our family for them.  Lord, please watch over them, move the paperwork forward, give those doing the paperwork a feeling of urgency, and place my babies in my arms soon.  I won't forget for one minute Who gave them to me!  I praise You and love You.  Amen

[ameliasmama1026]

Dec. 18, 2008 at 9:40 AM

I hope they are home soon. Hugs! Love you!

[joy2bamom]

Dec. 21, 2008 at 6:11 PM

I love you girl!  Your an amazing person and a FANTABULOUS mom.  Those kids are so blessed that God has called them yours and I can't wait until you get the blessing of holding them in your arms.  So quickly all the pain of their pasts will be forgotten with God on their side and a family like yours.

[mommytoseven]

Dec. 22, 2008 at 10:30 PM

I pray that God will bring your angels home soon-what a blessing!

[Donna_Mommy]

Jan. 16, 2009 at 4:23 PM

I stopped in to see how things were going and stumbled upon this post. You are a blessing and inspiration to many. I'm sorry your children were delayed in arriving home. I hope the wait has already ended. If not, that it will be soon. I'll be praising God right beside you for bringing these babies home to a waiting family who already loves them deeply and unconditionally.