Moving For Sure This Time

[SwtBunnyThumper]

Well I had posted a blog awhile back about my family moving to a town that is 30 minutes away from where we are currently living. But of course plans fell through and nothing ever came about it. Josh and I talk all the time about moving out of this place because it's too stressful and is burning a hole in our pockets. Josh agreed we'd stay in Lumberton since our friends are here or live close by and my family is right here and close by, and I LOOOOVE the school district.

Yesterday I put myself on a waiting list for this nice apartment. It even has a fenced in back yard. PERFECT along with everything else it has to offer. But for some reason I got the feeling a few people were against it. But in the end it's our descison no one elses. If we want to move there, we will. THat's up to us, not anyone else.

Anyways Josh's dad called and said his realtor called with some land for sale with a idk what you would call it, it's not a house, because a house has bedrooms. It just has a living room and a kitchen and 2 sheds one with a washhouse outside. The land is 2 acres for 25,000. That's not bad at all, here in Lumberton 1 acre is usually 30,000 plus. It's expensive to live here in Lumberton.

Josh was wanting to live in that whatever until we could get a trailer, I was SO not for that at all. I'm not about to move out of a 2 bedroom tralier to a box tha thas no bedrooms and with a wash room OUTSIDE..that's pointless to me. Sorry that's how I feel. Josh said later we'd be getting the land and a new trailer at the same time, okay so NOW we are talking.

I'll move wherever Josh wants to move but i'm not all that happy about it honestly. I can adapt to change, but it will take me awhile to get use to the HUGE change. Lumberton is my hometown to me, I lived here for 10 years now and now i'm about to be moving to a town called Buna that doesn't even have a Wal-Mart nor grocery store you've heard of. It will be further away from my family and my friends too! I'm a big family person and I love my friends, it breaks my heart to be 30min to an hour away from them now. Granted it could be worse and farther, but still that's enough for me.

At least i'll have my own car whenever taxes come in so it won't be so bad,you bet your happy ass I won't be home all of the time i'm sure,  i'll be getting a job too somewhere in Buna I guess and have to find a babysitter I trust. Ugh. I'm so stressed out about it, and i'm trying so hard not to be. I never pictured myself living in Josh's hometown. I don't like that place. The only thing we like about it is Josh's family lives there, if his family didn't live there, we would never visit the place.

A part of me is bummed out because my whole life all I can remember us doing was moving to house to house city to city, I hate moving..and i've finally been settled in Lumberton for 10 years, granted i've moved to apartment to trailer or house to apartment whatever but it's been in the same city. At least with this we will be in Buna for the rest of our lives and not have to move into another place again.....

I'm worried about all of Josh's old running buddies and friends that knew him back in the day whenever Josh was in a bad part in his life. I'll be fighting off old druggies and whores and that stresses me out more than anything. Because here in Lumberton I don't have to do that. He has new friends here that we can trust ya know.

Like I said, this change in my life will be hard for me, harder than anything i've had to adapt too. But I know in the long run it will be worth it because we will save so much money. I just hope it's not as bad as i'm thinking it will be. I'm happy to move, but it sucks it's further away from my loved ones. At least i'll have the internet and a car and my cell of course to keep in touch! I guess this means we will have more get togethers lol because I know Josh is going to miss his friends as much as I will!!