In some kind of mood.. (LONG)

[proudmommy1006]

Sitting here bored and alone.. Tommy is sleeping and Tom is doing snow removal.. Lots of thoughts running through my head. I hate when Im alone I think alot, sometimes maybe too much..

So much many things have changed in the past 6 months of my life. I lost a really good friend of mine and my best friend had his baby 3 months ago. She doesnt talk to me as much as she used to and I miss her! I need to know she is alright, I want to be there for her sooo bad. But there really is only so much I can do for her. I just need her to be alright. KJ needs his mommy!

I have also broken a friendship with a best friend. Someone that I have known since the 7th grade. There were just some things about her that I never understood even knowing her for so long. Some things she said and did that I did not agree with. People that she has hurt in ways that are unforgiveable. I wish in a way that things were different but I cant undo what is done. I do miss her! I hanging out the whole family!

I have also found out that some people are just liars!

Tommy started head start, and I thought it was going to be this great experience. Oh was I wrong! Tommy is a very agressive, physical and playful kid. He has been around kids that were always older than him so he likes to wrestle. He does it with everyone including Tom. So I knew I might have a problem with him hitting other kids and boy was I right. Well the few couple weeks were rough but that was to be expected cause he has really only been around us for all his life. I am a stay at home mom so he was always with mommy. I mean occassionally we would visit people but not everyday interaction with children. So it was a new exciting experience for him. Well the hitting only got worst, he was being your typical little baby boy. Tripping kids, punching them in the face, etc... LOL So we had a meeting with the teachers and the couselor lady. The behavior has became very impulsive and violent so they want him to see a specialist. That was their main concern. So we took in there and it was BULL, she didnt even talk to him much talk to me more well to get the background and all. But we left there, she gave me no game plan. All she said was to tell the teacher that if there is any more incidents to write them down so I can give them to her the next visit. They limit his time at school to 830-1145 from 830-200. So the next couple weeks the hitting diminishes. WOOHOO! not.. We go to our next behavior specialist appt and I go to the papers from the teacher she has written nothing down. And she is not even there to talk to me about it.. Go the appt once again she talks to me more than Tommy. But basically she thinks he is a normal little boy that is just alittle more rambuncous(sp) than the other kids. I talk to school and now their excuse why he cant come back is because he is alittle too much to handle. BULLSH*T! So they want the specialist to observe him in school. Which they were suppose to call me and let me know what is going on but of course no one has called me. It is all bullshit! He is alittle hyper than the rest so wait, he is 4 not 10! They need to realize that! There is sooo much to do in that room of course he wants to do it all. Shit I want to play in there too.. lmao  It breaks my heart, I go in to pick him up and everyday I have to hear why do I have to leave and they can stay. Everyone is telling me to take him out.. I could teach him the same things at home but he needs to be around kids, he needs that socialization. Boy they piss me off! Sorry..lol

I learned in the past 6 months that my sister will never grow up even though she is going on 35. (Long Long Story)

Tom - I love that man with everything I got and sometimes you have to just deal with the small stupid shit if you are ever going to be happy. He is my rock, my best friend! Even though Im a bitch most of the time I appreciate everything that man does for me! I love you!

Tommy Tommy Tommy THE MOST IMPORTANT PART! LOL Getting big and bad! He knows how to push buttons and he does it well. He is growing up wayy too fast and learning wayyyy too much! He has a fascination now with butts. I dont why either...lmao He is such a smart cookie and I have his father to thank for that. I cant believe my baby just turned 4 alittle bit ago, where does the time go when you have kids??

Sorry about the babbling if anyone reads it all the way to the bottom...LMAO!