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GOD Bless the Broken Road
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"And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death."
(Rev 12:11)
Hi... I wanted to invite you all to share a brief portion of your testimony. What were the things that brought you to a saving knowledge of Jesus Christ?
My testimony can be read here. Please vote it popular & leave me a comment.
Please also write a portion of your testimony in the comments section below, along with a link (if you have one) to your own testimony. :)
I would ask that you vote this popular, as well as visit one another's testimonies and vote them popular as well.
To GOD be the glory - great things He has done!
If you have made it here, and do not know Jesus Christ as your Lord & Savior, please go here and read how you can know Him too! He loves you so very much, and even led you here at this very moment so you could hear about Him & His love for you!
Comments:
Your life is a testament of His love! What has the LORD done for you? What has He brought you through? Tell us of His wondrous works in your heart and life! We want to hear!
My testimony:
"Destined" by Evil; Purposed by GOD - My Personal Testimony of How the LORD Rescued Me
I grew up in church, I am a ministers daughter and I was what they called a wild child. But the Lord kept me from harm. He had his hand on my life growing up and he still does. I have been on deaths door many times. The first time was as an infant. I was eplileptic it started with my immunazations. The doctor sent me home many times to die at least that is what he told my parents. The doctor also told them that I would more than likely not wake up one day. Then at 5 years old I was diagnosed with luekima. The doctor ran a test and it came back as Cancer. I remember the test like it was yesterday it hurt so bad. It was torture. I cried out for everyone I knew. My Parents, Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, I remembered what my Grandmother told me to do when I was in pain and could not take it anymore. She said to cry out his name Jesus. Well that is what I did. They finished the procedure and the doctor walked out of the room. He later told my parents that the reason he walked out was because I called out in Jesus name. That doctor is a christain today because of that. That 2nd test was negative for cancer. The doctor could not explain it. I have the rest of my testimoney on the journal pages.
Hello, Friend :) I thought I'd locate your testimony and post a link here! ;)
Thank you for sharing with us!
*Sigh* First, please forgive me for not commenting sooner. I keep meaning to write my FULL testimony down, and I still haven't gotten around to it... but I do have part of it.... http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1302313/Hi_my_name_s_Debbie_and_I_m_an_Alcoholic
I promise I'll come back when I write the rest.
P.s.- if you get a chance check this one out too :)
http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1325083/Cardboard_Testimonies_and_more
pps- how do you do the links w/ just the title???
WAS BORN IN SPRINGVILLE NY. AND MY PARENTS WERE MARRIED BUT NOT HAPPILY. THEY SEPARATED WHEN I WAS JUST A BABY. (I WOULD LATER LEARN MANY THINGS ABOUT THIS. NONE OF WHICH I CAN BE SURE OF AS NEITHER SIDE OF MY FAMILY LIKES THE OTHER.AND I DON'T KNOW WHICH ONE IS TELLING THE TRUTH, IF EITHER SIDE??)
I GREW UP IN A HOME FULL OF DYSFUNTION. ALCOHOLISM,DRUG ABUSE, MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL MANIPULATION TO THE POINT OF LITTERALLY BORDERLINE MIND CONTROL. THERE WAS SEVERAL OCCASIONS OF MOLESTATION, AND ONE TIME I WAS ACTUALLY RAPED BY MY MOTHERS HUSBAND. I WAS TOLD ONCE THAT MY MOTHER HAD BEEN OFFERED 50 THOUSAND DOLLARS FOR ME. SHE SAID "YOUR LUCKY I KEPT YOU." I ALWAYS SECRETLY WISHED I HAD BEEN SOLD. MAYBE THINGS WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER. SHE ALSO TOLD US ALL OF MY 4 SIBLINGS AND I THAT SHE HAD WANTED TO ABORT US BUT COULD NOT BRING HERSELF TO DO IT. (FOR ANYONE WHO WONDERS WHY I HATE ABORTION SO MUCH THIS IS THE REASON. A CHILD SHOULD NEVER THINK THEY WERE NOT WANTED, MAYBE THEY WERE NOT A PLANNED PREGNANCY BUT ONCE YOU KNEW THEY WERE COMING YOU WANTED THEM.. CAUSE IF NOT YOU WOULDNT HAVE HAD THEM) THE ABUSE WAS HORRIBLE. I REMEMBER BEING 3 AND PULLING MY MOTHERS HEAD OUT OF THE TOILET AND WASHING HER FACE WITH A SPONGE. I REMEMBER BEING 5 AND GOING TO KINDERGARTEN AND THINKING HOW I WANTED TO NEVER GO HOME. (AS A CHILD I REMEMBER THINKING THE MAN IN THE MOON WAS GOD. SO NIGHTLY I WOULD LOOK AT THE MOON AND CRY AND PRAY FOR HIM TO FORGIVE ME AND TEACH ME HOW TO BE A GOOD KID. ONE MY MOMMY COULD LOVE.. AT 30 I CAN SAY I REALIZE MY MOTHER DID LOVE ME SHE JUST SHOULD NEVER HAVE HAD CHILDREN. SHE HAD MANY MENTAL ILLNESSES WHICH SHE STILL TO THIS DAY WILL NOT PROPERLY TAKE CARE OF.) I SIT HERE WRITING THIS NOT CAUSE I WANT YOU TO KNOW ALTHOUGH I HOPE SOMEONE CAN USE THIS INFORMATION. I WRITE THIS TO PURGE MY SOUL. TO BRING SOME MEASURE OF HEALING TO A LITTLE GIRL WHO NEVER GREW UP. THANKFULLY I NOW KNOW I HAD A FATHER WHO DID LOVE ME.. HE MISSED ME FOR YEARS. AND AT ONE POINT HAD HIRED A DETECTIVE TO TRY TO FIND ME. MY MOTHER HAD NO OFFICIAL CUSTODY FOR A LONG TIME AND HE HOPED HE COULD GAIN CUSTODY IF HE COULD FIND US. THING WAS MY MOTHER MOVED SO OFTEN. I WONDER IF IT WAS CAUSE SHE KNEW WE WERE NARROWLY ESCAPING BEING FOUND OR IF IT WAS SHE "MOVED INSTEAD OF CLEANED" AS A CHILD THAT WAS OUR INSIDE JOKE THAT SHE WOULD MOVE TO AVOID CLEANING THE HOUSE. IRONIC THAT IT ALL COULD HAVE CHANGED HAD WE STAYED PUT FOR AWHILE. WE MOVED MANY TIMES WE WENT FROM NY TO GRANDE PRAIRIE TEXAS, AND FROM THERE TO THE NY/PENN BOARDER. WE WOULD MOVE ALONG THAT BOARDER MANY TIMES.
AT 3 I WAS MOLESTED. MY MOTHER SAYS MY FATHER DID IT. (APPARENTLY ALTHOUGH I DON'T REMEMBER IT I HAD SOME VISITATIONS. THERE ARE PROOFS CAUSE MY PATERNAL GRANDMA HAS PICTURES OF ME AT AGE 3) MY FATHER SAYS MY MOTHERS BOYFREIND IS THE MOLESTER.... I DON'T KNOW! ALL I KNOW IS THERE WERE CHARGES AGAINST MY FATHER. AND I WAS TAKEN AWAY FROM HIM. AND FOR THE NEXT 8 YEARS I WOULD NOT SEE HIM AGAIN.(8 LONG LONG YEARS) DUE TO MY AGE I DURING THOSE 8 YEARS DID NOT KNOW WHO MY DAD WAS. I DIDN'T REMEMBER WHAT HE LOOKED LIKE. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HIS FIRST NAME. I KNEW HIS LAST NAME AS I WAS ALLOWED TO KEEP MY LAST NAME. I REMEMBER CLINGING TO THAT NAME LIKE IT WAS A LADDER TO A BETTER WORLD. IRONIC HOW CLOSE I CAME TO BEING RIGHT. OCCASIONALLY DURING THOSE 8 YEARS I REMEMBER LOOKING AROUND THE MALLS AND WONDERING WHERE MY FATHER WAS.. IF HE WAS ONE OF THE MEN AROUND ME?
NOW LET ME STOP YOU RIGHT HERE AND SAY.. I AM SHARING THE HARD PARTS OF MY LIFE. NOT THAT THERE WERE NOT GOOD PARTS. THERE WERE. MY MOM COULD MAKE ANYTHING OUT OF NOTHING. SHE WOULD MAKE BIRD FEEDERS OUT OF PINECONES AND PEANUT BUTTER AND SEEDS. SHE WOULD MAKE MEALS FROM SCRATCH THAT TASTED LIKE 8 COURSE MEALS SERVED IN PALACES. WE WOULD GO AND HAVE GREAT TIMES AT CHURCH(THANK GOD MY MOTHER ALWAYS FOUND A CHURCH TO BE INVOLVED IN. I THINK GOD KNEW HOW MUCH I WOULD NEED IT.)BUT THESE TIMES WERE NOT THE AVERAGE DAY. THESE WERE THE "OMG THERE A MIRACLE HAPPENING HERE" DAY. ON THOSE NIGHTS I WOULD DARE TO DREAM OF REAL FAMILIES, WHERE I THOUGHT ALL WAS PERFECT. SCHOOL BECAME MY ESCAPE AS SOON AS I WAS ABLE TO START ATTENDING.
MY LIFE WAS ONE OF BEING THE SURROGATE MOTHER TO MYSELF AN ALSO THE OTHER SIBLINGS AS I GREW UP. I STILL REMEMBER THE TIMES MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS WOULD CALL ME MOM AND MY MOTHER WOULD GET VIOLENTLY ANGRY WITH ME. HER DRINKING WAS THE CAUSE OF MANY ISSUES.(I WANT TO TAKE THIS MOMENT AND ASK ANYONE READING TO LOOK WITHIN YOUR HEARTS AND IF YOU HAVE EVEN THE SLIGHTEST TWING OF GUILT IN REGARDS TO YOUR DRINKING OR DRUG USAGE, I ASK YOU PLEASE TO GO GET SOME HELP. MY WHOLE LIFE WOULD AND COULD HAVE BEEN MUCH BETTER IF MY MOTHER HAD NOT BEEN SELF-MEDIATING HERSELF WITH ALCHOL AND MARAJUANA AND GOD KNOWS WHAT ELSE. DON'T FOOL YOURSELF.. YOUR CHILDREN KNOW THE DIFFERENCE THEY SEE YOUR EYES THEY NOTICE THE SMELLS THEY DESPERATELY WANT A "HEALTHY PARENT" I BEG YOU FOR THEM TO GO GET HELP. IF YOU WON'T DO IT FOR YOU DO IT FOR THEM!!)
WHEN I WAS 11 THINGS CHANGED DRASTICALLY. MY MOTHER DUE TO A COURT ORDER FOR COURT WAS FORCED TO ALLOW MY FATHER TO SEE ME AGAIN (I NEVER DID AND STILL TO THIS DAY DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW THY COULD HAVE HELD US APART IF LIKE THEY HAD WITHOUT EVIDENCE. AND IF THEY DID HAVE THE EVIDENCE MY MOM SAID THEY HAD ABOUT MY DAD BEING MY MOLESTER THEN... WHY DID THEY LET ME START SEEING HIM AGAIN?)
BUT THEY DID ALLOW ME TO SEE HIM AND ALL WAS WELL. WEEKENDS WERE HEAVEN FOR ME.. SUMMER WAS GOOD AND THAT ONE WINTER WAS GREAT. THEN ON FEBUARY 9TH I WENT TO HE MOVIES(THE ONE AND ONLY TIME MY MOTHER GAVE ME MONEY TO GO ANYWHERE FOR MYSELF) AND I WENT TO THE MOVIES. ON MY WAY HOME I PASSED A FRIEND OF MY MOMS AND STOPPED IN AND TRIED TO VISIT HER. WHEN I GOT THERE HER HUSBAND SAID SHE WAS SOON TO BE HOME... HE HANDED ME A DRINK AND I GLADLY DRANK IT. HE KEPT HANDING ME DRINK AFTER DRINK OF THIS "FUNNY COOL AID" LATER I WOULD FIND OUT IT IS CALLED SLOW GIN WELL I GOT SNOCKERED. AND HE PROCEDED TO MOLEST ME AND HE TRIED TO RAPE ME. I RAN ALL THE WAY HOME THAT NIGHT CRYING MY EYES OUT SURE GOD WOULD NEVER FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT HAD HAPPENED. "I HAD BEEN TOLD I HAD COMMITTED ADULTERY." AND MY LITTLE MIND SAID THAT IS A BIG BROKEN COMMANDMENT CAN GOD FORGIVE ME? WELL FOR THE NEXT HOURS I SLEPT OFF MY FIRST DRUNK... AND ON FEBUARY 10TH MY MOTHERS HUSBAND PROCEEDED TO FINISH WHAT THE FIRST GUY HAD NOT SUCCEEDED AT. MY MOTHERS HUSBAND TOOK MY ADDLED MIND AND CONVINCED ME THAT I WAS A IGNORANT STUPID GIRL WHO SHOULD HAVE ALREADY HAD SEX. I WAS TOLD I WAS IN DEEP TROUBLE.. ALL MY FRIENDS WOULD KNOW I WAS STILL A VIRGIN. WELL I THINK I LITTERALLY "CHECKED OUT'' BECAUSE I WENT TO MY ROOM AS TOLD AND LAYED ON MY BED LIKE I WAS TOLD AND THEN LATER WHEN HE CAME IN HE RAPED ME. I WAS WEIRDLY SEEING WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO ME FROM SOMEWHERE IN MY HEAD. IT WAS LIKE NOTHING I CAN EXPLAIN BUT THAT I BELEIVE I HAD A TEMPORARY MENTAL BREAKDOWN. I DO NOT REMEMBER MUCH OF THE REST OF THE DAY. I DO KNOW WHEN MY MOM GOT HOME FROM COLLAGE THAT I WAS SITTING ON THE NINTENDO (YES THE ORIGINAL ONE.) AND WOULD NOT TALK TO HER, WOULD NOT LOOK AT HER, WOULD NOT EAT WOULD NOT DO ANYTHING BUT PLAY THAT GAME. I KNEW THAT IN THE GAME I WAS SAFE. AND I STAYED THERE UNTIL ABOUT 9 THAT NIGHT WHEN MY MOTHERS HUSBAND LEFT. SHE CAME TO ME AND SAID WHAT IS A MATTER? I REMEMBER TELLING HER YOU WON'T BELEIVE ME IF I TELL YOU SO DON'T ASK. SHE REASURED ME SHE WOULD BELEIVE ME. AND I CRACKED AND TOLD HER IT ALL. WELL SHE TOOK ME TO THE HOSPITAL AND THERE I HAD MILLIONS OF QUESTIONS AND TESTS AND ALL THAT STUFF. THEN THE POLICE CAME AND QUESTIONED US. AND BROUGHT US HOME. AND I SAT IN THEIR CAR AS THEY WENT IN AND TOOK HIM AWAY. BUT AS THEY WISKED HIM PAST MY POLICE CAR I REMEMBER HIM SAYING " ONE OF THESE DAYS THEY WON'T BE AROUND AND YOU WILL PAY FOR THIS."
WELL HE WENT TO JAIL AND I WENT TO BED. AND FOR THE NEXT MONTH THINGS GOT MUCH BETTER. LIFE WAS ALMOST NORMAL OTHER THAN WHEN MY FRIENDS HAD SEEN THE ARTICLE IN THE NEWS PAPER ABOUT WHAT HAD HAPPEND. THAT WAS HARD TO DEAL WITH. BUT THE PEACE WAS SHORT LIVED. ON MARCH 10TH MY MOTHER KEPT ME HOME FROM SCHOOL AND PLAYED MUSIC AND WE WATCHED TNT. AND AS THE MUSIC VIDEO "FANCY BY REBA MCINTIRE PLAYED" MY MOTHER EXPLAINED THAT THERE WERE MEN COMING TO TAKE ME TO LIVE SOMEPLACE ELSE.(TALK ABOUT FEELING LIKE THE ONE PERSON IN LIFE WHO WAS SUPPOSED TO LOVE YOU WAS TOTALLY DISAPOINTED AND LET YOU DOWN AND FAILED YOU IN MORE WAYS THAN YOU CAN EVEN UNDERSTAND.) THAT DAY STARTED THE 7 MONTHS I SPENT IN FOSTER CARE....
I WAS SO HURT SO UPSET AND LET DOWN. I FELT TOTALLY UNWANTED AND UNLOVED, UN LOVABLE AS WELL. IF MY OWN MOM DIDN'T LOVE ME THEN WHO COULD??
THE GOOD NEWS WAS THAT AFTER ALL THIS... WE WENT TO COURT AND I PUT MY RAPIST IN JAIL. HE WAS SENTANCED TO 5 YEARS. (IT WAS VERY JUSTIFYING) I LATER LEARNED IT WAS MY MOTHER FINDING THE "CONDOM WRAPPER HE HAD USED THAT PUT HIM AWAY."
AND AT SOME POINT MY FATHER AND MOTHER BOTH WENT TO COURT TO GET CUSTODY OF ME. AND I WAS AWARDED BY THE COURT THE CHANCE TO CHOOSE MY HOME. I CHOSE MY FATHER. I HAD FELT TO HURT STILL TO CHOOSE MY MOM. I NEVER DID LIVE WITH HER AGAIN. AND TO THIS DAY SHE STILL THINKS OF THIS TIME IN HER LIFE AS THE TIME WHEN HER LIFE WAS DESTROYED.(THE BEGINNING OF BAD THINGS TO COME SHE CALLS IT.) FOR ME IT WAS AN AWAKENING. I WAS LITTERALLY PUT THROUGH THE FIRES OF ALL EVILS. MY FAMILY GONE, MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS WHO I HAD FELT COMPELLED TO PROTECT WERE WRIPPED FROM MY LIFE, AND MY MIND HAD BEEN BROKEN.I STILL TO THIS DAY SUFFER FROM POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER(PTSD PLEASE EDUCATE YOURSELF ABOUT THIS)
WHEN I WENT TO LIVE WITH MY FATHER I WAS MADE TO GO TO COUNCILING BY THE STATE OF NEW YORK DEPARTMENT OF CHILD AND FAMILY SERVICES. THEY WANTED TO HAVE ME GET THE HELP I NEEDED.(I HAVE MIXED FEELINGS FOR CPS BUT THIS THEY DID FOR ME AND IT REALLY HELPED.)
I WAS SHELTERED BY MY DAD. HE CARED AND LOVED ME AND HUGGED ME AND HE WAS MY HERO. HE WAS MY PROTECTOR. HE MADE ME WANT TO TRUST AGAIN. HE MADE ME BELEIVE IN GOOD PEOPLE AND GOD. NOW THIS IS A LONG PROCESS. I STARTED AT ALMOST 13 AND AT ALMOST 30 I FINALLY FEEL LIKE MYLIFE IS STARTING TO BE WORTHWHILE AGAIN. AND HE TOLD ME THE ONE LINE WHICH CHANGED MY WORLD.
I MAY NOT ALWAYS AGREE WITH ALL YOU DO BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW I AM HERE TO HELP YOU NO MATTER WHAT. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW LOVED THAT MADE ME FEEL.
GOD HAS BEEN A HUGE PART OF MY LIFE. HE FILLED IN ALLTHE LITTLE GAPS. AND HE HAS MORE HEALING YET TO DO. AS I WROTE THIS I SAT HERE THINKING OF ALL THE THINGS I SHOULD LEAVE OUT OR NOT SAY CAUSE SOME WOULD THINK IT "TMI" WELL I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW.
ALL THAT TMI THAT IS THE STUFF GOD WILL COME IN AND HEAL YOU FROM. THAT IS THE THINGS HE WILL "BRING YOU OUT OF AND HEALS YOU FROM"
He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.PSALMS 147:3
HE SEES THE HURT HE KNOWS. DO YOU KNOW HOW I KNOW HE HEALS?? BECAUSE HE HEALED ME. WHEN I WAS SO BROKE I COULD NOT CARE FOR MYSELF LET ALONE ANYONE ELSE; HE SAID I LOVE YOU MY GOD LOVES ME AND HE LOVES YOU TOO. HE IS WAITING FOR THE MOMENT YOU WILL LET HIM IN TO DO THE SAME WORK ON YOU. MY GOD DON'T PLAY FAVORITES. HE LOVES EVERYONE
Psalm 34:18 The LORD is near to the brokenhearted And saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 51:17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.
ISAIAH 61:1 The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me, Because the LORD has anointed me To bring good news to the afflicted; He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, To proclaim liberty to captives And freedom to prisoners;
Ezekiel 34:16 "I will seek the lost, bring back the scattered, bind up the broken and strengthen the sick; but the fat and the strong I will destroy. I will feed them with judgment.
LET JESUS HEAL YOUR PAINS TODAY. I PROMISE YOU: YOU WILL NEVER REGRET IT.
*Sigh* First, please forgive me for not commenting sooner. I keep meaning to write my FULL testimony down, and I still haven't gotten around to it... but I do have part of it.... http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1302313/Hi_my_name_s_Debbie_and_I_m_an_Alcoholic
I promise I'll come back when I write the rest.
P.s.- if you get a chance check this one out too :)
http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1325083/Cardboard_Testimonies_and_more
pps- how do you do the links w/ just the title???
RepentantSinner Jan. 8, 2009 at 3:21 AM
I will check out your links :) Thank you for stopping by and sharing! Praise be to Almighty GOD for all the great things HE has done for us!!!
About the links... I just type out the Title of the page and then click the "link" button below the box here. A little box pops up and you insert the URL into the first field. The second field is the "target" and that is where you designate if you want the link to come up in hte same box, or a new box. The last field im where you type a title for the page you are linking to... anything you choose, really, to tell ppl what they are about to read.
I hope that helps, lol.
HUGs!
in CHRIST and under HIS wings!!!
Kim
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From reading this scripture, it is evident that a testimony is not a testimony, without first having experienced salvation, through the shed blood of Jesus Christ!
What is it that makes our testimonies so powerful against the enemy? Have you ever thought about that? When you think back over the major struggles in your life, what was it that brought you through? And after having come through and being able to stand on the other side, what are the differences that you have noticed? (Is it not that He brought His truth into your painful places, and His truth brought healing and freedom? And now you have something to stand on, something more to hold on to when the next battle comes your way?!) He sends His Word and heals... Jesus, the Word made flesh... He IS the Way, the Truth, the Life! His truth! Wow! His truth is what our testimonies are built upon! Isn't that amazing?! That is what makes our testimonies such a powerful weapon against the enemy!
What is YOUR testimony? Have you written your story? Do you have a link? I'd love to read it! :) If you have not written... please pray about what the LORD would have you write! You WILL overcome!! His Word says it!
- Trust_HIM_Ps57
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