I'm being tested so early in the morning!

[amethystrse]

This morning the children woke upat a quarter to 5 according to my sister.  I woke up to my sister yelling at them at 5:30.  She lives in the basemen and her bedroom is under our livingroom.  Every morning she yells at them for making noise though usually they wake up just before 7.  She doesn't understand that they're kids and they're not waking her up on purpose.  She says they're rude for beng so inconsiderate.  I say they're kids.

I'm trying to be positive and not negative.  But my mind is full of so many negative things to say to her.  I'm trying to push those thoughts out of my mind.  I don't yell at her for keeping me awake at night (she goes to bed really late and my bedroom is above her livingroom.  It's not that she's loud, just that the floors are thin.  I can hear her even when she's being quiet.  She can hear us when we walk.

I have so many things I want to say to her.  I mean yes, it is inconsiderate that the kids are waking her up.  But they're kids.  She knew that before we moved in together.  It's impossible to keep kids ultra quiet.  I mean right now they're in Orion's room and they're not being all that loud yet she came up here and yelled at them for keeping her awake.

Part of me just wants to tear into her.  It would only lead to a fight though.  It won't help anything.  And I'm trying to keep my mind positve.  Just wish I had more sleep.  lol

I don't think that my sister and I fighting will be productive in any way so I'll bite my tongue.  I won't point out all the ways that she's inconsiderate to me.  How abusive she can get sometimes or how she doesn't pay for half the things she should.  She doesn't even always make rent let alone pay for her pay per view or food or chip in towards the oil for heat.  I've pointed these things out to her before.  How she keeps me up at night being no more loud than the kids are.  How she doesn't chip in towards gas when I drive her around more than I use the car for myself.

*sigh*  Positive thoughts Jess, positive thoughts.  I can be positive.

Told ya that this would be the hardest part of changing myself.

[Allana]

Dec. 22, 2008 at 7:37 AM

Ugh what a morning!  I've lived in places with thin floors layering big area rugs helped (but it took at least three to really make any impact on the noise) it was all I could come up with.  Hugs!!!  You are right fighting wouldn't help either of you, though it is hard to resist!