God Im so mad i could just scream!!!!VEnt may be long

[elananme]

My husband is an ass!! He decided this morning to get hismotherto watch the kids tonight so we could have some alone time.  Then he tells me a little after that that he is going to his friends house to help him set up a new trampoline thing they got for christmas and that he wont be gone all day.  He calls me a few minutes ago to tell me that now he is going out with the friend and another friend and that they dont know how long they will be gone. He wanted the kids out of the house so we could have noisy sex and just spend time together but yet again his stupid drunk friends come first.  He acts like I am unimportant and inconsequential until he wants food or sex or to get to work  and then he is all "i love you and Ill do this or that for you tomorrow" to make up for it.  I am so mad!!!!! I just want to yell at him, hit him or something to wake him up and make him realize that he is losing his family.  I love him but i  dont think I should have to be a prisoner in my home just so he can do things.  I never get to do anything I dont even take the kids to the park because i dont want to burn the gas that we will need to get him to work everyday.  I havent gotten new clothes in years, I am down to three pairs of underwear and they all have holes in them, I do without things that i need just so that he and the kids can get to do things, not that i am complaining about thekids doing stuff cause they should do things, but why should i do without necessities so he can indulge in luxuries.  I cant believe how angry i am but more than that I am so hurt he had promised me some grown up alone time and yet here i am a grown up and alone. 

Then he proceeds to tell me i can have the big couch which of course i am taking anyway because lo and behold hes not going to be here when i get ready for bed! why am i not surprised? because he does this nearly every weekend.  I try to be accomodating and not bitch cause he works and deserves a break but goddam it I am sick of him getting to do thigns with friends and i get to not only be home alone but be his whipping post/scapegoat/etc.. for when things arent going his way!!!! ITs not my fault, dammit so stop taking it out on me.  I dont know what to do anymore Im so mad!!!!! I want to scream and cry at the same time.  What the hell!!!! When is it my turn? DAMN HIM!!!!!!!!

[Della529]

Dec. 27, 2008 at 9:43 PM

I understand and feel your pain.  I kicked mine to the curb last Sunday for the same exact things.  Eleven and half years of it!!