I miss my pre-baby body :(

[QuillonsMom]

So I was looking at pics I had from a long time ago and realized how much my body has changed, and not in the good way. I love my son more than anything in the world, and would do it ten times over to have him again, but I hate my body. I havent been working out or really dieting, and its my fault, but I still don;t have the positive self esteem I used to. I still have that stupid gym membership that i keep forgetting to cancel, and I am considering going. The realy hold up is being afraid to leave Quillon with strangers and strange kids with germs and lice and who knows what in that daycare center. I could be being paranoid, but he isnt just a tiny baby, he walks and talks and plays and interacts with other people. he also is very attached to his mommy and I hate to scare him....I have to do something though. i can't even take diet pills because he still tries to kinda nurse at night, though i hardly have anything to give him, I dont want to risk it...I guess I will wait patiently. i will never deny him access to my breast at this tender age, so exercise is all i can do. Just wanted to bitch. I used to go to the nude beach proudly, and after looking at those pics I feel I will never be able to again go in the buff...sad sad indeed,

[GrowingMama]

Dec. 29, 2008 at 4:17 AM

While going to the nude beach does have its advantages - and I can see how you'd miss it :-) - I'd say spend time rejoicing in who you are NOW. You're mom now. Your body has done something now that it hadn't done when you graced the beach. Something far greater. Will it ever be the same? Not likely. But you already know what you have is a great blessing indeed! Be the best mom you can be and exercise as you can, but don't waste time wishing for something that's gone now. Enjoy where you are! Blessings!