These last couple of years have been hard for me, everything has happened from lost relationships, to homelessness, getting pregnant by a fool out of wedlock to losing my faith. I must admit that I've made some bad choices but I also must come to terms with the consequences I've had to face as a result, no it has not been easy, I'm a twenty eight year old woman with three kids and did I mention (single) this has probably been the hardest thing for me, I am lonley and my quest for love has been to no avail. I use to want so much to please God to be His woman, I've fell into self condemnation so badly I don't know how to get out. I suppose I have tried to controll every aspect of my life as if I were He, I'm at the point where I can't fight anymore I have no choice but to put the past behind me no matter how bad it hurts to let go, I can't continue living my life like this , I must find peace I must let go and Let God I don't want to be angry anymore when I look at my situation. Today I decide to live, to make better choices to love myself that includes my flaws and everything about me. Today I decide to let go of dreams that don't fit my lifestyle now bu to dream new ones that are condusive. No longer will I try so hard to please people. I GIVE UP! And I breath, because the truth is that I cannot do anything but hope and I hope that my journey will be full and complete

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Kelly...
Jan. 1, 2009 at 8:56 AM

I hope you find your peace you deserve and need.  You seemed to have been in some rough times, but the good thing is from your posting you still have hope....which means a lot.  My prayers are that God will see you through this....hugs

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themo...
Jan. 1, 2009 at 1:13 PM thank you kelly jude

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