Totally freakin out about the c-section tomorrow!

[andiebfreeman]

Okay so I have a c-section scheduled for 1:30 tomorrow because they are having a hard time controlling my blood pressure and my cervix isn't ready to induce.  I'm soooooo freaked out!  I burst into tears this morning because I burned my bacon :-(  I'm on bedrest but dammit I just wanted a BLT!  But I burned the bacon and then discovered that there was no tomato and my husband was a little short with me on the phone (he's out running errands to get ready for tomorrow).  And that all just started a rush of tears that would not stop!   I guess I needed that because I had to have one after I heard that he was either going to induce or do a c-section and I hadn't had a good cry since he told me that it was definitely going to be a c-section.  It is the exact opposite of what I wanted.  I had all of these plans to go completely natural and let the cord pulse until it was done and breastfeed immediately and all of this other stuff.  Well, that is completely out the window.  My childbirth dreams have been slowly dying over the past few weeks as my blood pressure gets more and more out of control.  I know that a c-section is the safest way for both me and the baby (who is still growing really well by the way and was 7ibs 6 oz at her last ultrasound on Monday), but it's still really hard to come to grips with.  I'm really nervous and scared.  I've never had major surgery before and this is just completely freaking me out.  Sorry for the long rant.  Thanks for listening.

[mom2AJandDamien]

Jan. 7, 2009 at 12:00 PM

I have had 3 c-sections, the first and last were emergency and the middle one was planned. I will be having my fourth and final c-section this summer.

I know it is hard, but try to just take a deep breath and relax. In 24 hours all of this maddness will be behind you and you will be holding your new baby in your arms. I have a problem with blood pressure, and with my last that was what caused the emergency c-section. I know how hard it is to want your childbirth to go a certain way...

Just know that this is whats best for you and your baby. I will keep you in my thoughts. Good luck tomorrow

[halfadozenofem]

Jan. 7, 2009 at 12:17 PM

Awww, I am so sorry you are having a hard time. 

I have had 5 sections....will be having #6 in April.

Everyone goes through all sorts of emotions leading up to it and some even after....I am so sorry you are not going to be able to do it the way you had originally planned.

I have BF after each section, had the baby brought to me in recovery as soon as I was wheeled in there (with the nurses wtill getting me hooked up to everything and all) so even though it is not as soon as you give birth, it can still happen.

And I agree with the PP, in a little over 24 hrs from now your precious little one will be in your arms!!!

Anytime you would like to talk, please feel free to pm me....

Blessings~

[livinghealthy]

Jan. 7, 2009 at 12:19 PM

Sending hugs your way.     Stay focused on that beautiful baby you will be holding tomorrow.

[spunkymomof3]

Jan. 7, 2009 at 12:22 PM

Thoughts and prayers with you.  I have had three c/s.  I wish I could bring you a BLT.  I know how it feels to be on bed rest and decide what you wanted and then not have what you need. 

[mommyofrubylena]

Jan. 7, 2009 at 12:43 PM

Hugs and prayers sending your way:) I have had 2 c-sections, I was awake for both of them, and as long as you are calm, it's not bad.... I was able to see my little girls right after they were out:)  and I was up walkinging within 24 hours of surgary sp?.....  now they are big girls, and full of fun:)  It's ok, and it will be much better tomarrow!!!

[21noahsmama21]

Jan. 7, 2009 at 2:21 PM

I guess I don't understand the whole "cervix not being ready to induce bit" as they use things like cervidil or however it is spelled, and that is supposed to "ripen" the cervix and is part of the induction process.  I had a section myself and I hope yours goes MUCH better than mine did, as I'm sure it will.  It's a longer recovery process than a vaginal delivery, but it isn't too bad as long as you walk as much as you can as soon as you can but know your limit and rest when you need to.  LOTS of hugs for you and congrats on your pending arrival!  I can't wait to see pics!!!  And I know how you feel with the bedrest too.  I was on it for a few months and it SUCKED!  Good luck hun!

[ilovelandon06]

Jan. 7, 2009 at 3:43 PM

aww girl i know exactly what you mean. i freaked out also. let me say that if you have to get them to put you under during the surgery DONT feel guilty at all. its not your fault. thats what i did, i was too scared and flipped. they started cutting on me and i imagined it and flipped out and started screaming and whatnot and they knocked me out immediatly. theres no way i could have survived it, BUT i didnt have no family there at al to hold my hand or help me, so since you have your husband maybe you will feel more comfortabl. try very very hard to think of happy things and about seeing your baby through the surgery. and the time before that your waitng (like now) do everything possible to keep your mind busy. good luck. i was terrified also, if you need to talk im here. if have almost all the messengers if you want to chat just let me know.

[veg4animals2006]

Jan. 8, 2009 at 12:48 AM

Awww.. don't stress out about it. *hugs* You'll forget about it all once you're holding your beautiful baby in your arms. :)