VERY hard day...

[KristiLawley]

Seems no matter what, every couple of days I get in this mood where its almost like a slidding depression...I will start out fine when I wake up and then some kind of thought either enters my mind by my own doing or by something I have seen and it hits me...I go from thinking about my daughter to this baby and the amnio thats in 6 days and the fear and hopes I have all at the same time. Then I want to do nothing because I become emotionally drained...aggitated toward my DH even though that part is not his fault. Hell, I have even stayed to myself most of the day and let him do his thing with his buddy on a motorcycle instead of begging him to spend some time with me today...or maybe that could be part of it too, I have no idea. But now I am sitting here in and I have no way of getting it under control! Maybe I'm not meant too?? Maybe its just the way that my body deals with the stress of things to come and things that are?? Ugh, I hate days like today!! DH got upset with me because he thought I was aggitated at him and I told him I was just aggitated in general and he walked out to go to the store to get stuff for dinner...whats wrong with me!?!?!? Thanks for listening girls

[hotrod]

Feb. 5, 2009 at 8:05 PM

Hey sweets!  So I'm about a month late commenting on this...  I've looked at your pics...144 days to go!  :)  Yippee!  How did the amnio go?  Days like this are not all uncommon, sounds like mentally you know you're off, so that's a good start.  Be sure to tell you Dr. when you go, even if you're feeling great all that week.  You have a reason to be scared and stressed and worried, all while being completely in love and hopeful and anxious to see her.  I don't know if you are taking anything for depression now, but maybe if you journaled a sentence or two each day and took it to your Dr. to give him an idea of what is going on.  I'm not experienced with this really, but I've had many friends that don't get help until after the baby is a month or more old.  Everybody has their emotional, bad days, but if it's an everyday thing...talk to Robbie...talk to your Dr.  I think you probably know about all this (probably better than me!), and this may have been just one journal on a really bad day...I just want you to be able to fully enjoy this time!  (How's that for a hey, I haven't talked to you in like, 3 months thing?...or has it been longer??)  Hugs!!