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[bluemist246]

i dont wanna complain. my husband works so hard for us, and as a result i get to stay home with our beautiful son. but i am having a hard time. the takes 2 naps a day so i feel a bit limited, and my husband uses our only car during the work week, and its too cold to stay outside for verry long. im not verry good at meeting new ppl and get a bit nervous in new places. i think im just a bit of a nervous nelly over all. my house is a mess because i have even lost the motivation to do the house work. i have never been a good self motivator but when that beautiful baby takes his nap, house work is the last thing on my mind. and i love to go work out but i am imbarrased [im beyond out of shape] and a little shy! i have never felt like this before, so insecure, i used to have confidence. i hope this will pass before my husband gets deployed. i think i am just uset to my family and friends pushing me, now they are so far away and my husband is tired. i need to learn how to push my self! maybe one day, maybe when my son is older, idk.... maybe i just need to stop complaining, i have a great life.