Kind of inspired by the topic of the day

[Mary0791]

So, I'm in this self-consuming mode right now.  Wondering all sorts of things about myself & trying to figure out my life.  I've been depressed, unhappy, & self-destructive.  I wrote about it in one of my groups and the self therapy & advice given by my friends worked wonders. 

 

BUT, something else happened.  I started messing around with my CM page, updating some things, trying to get some of the garbage off of it so that it would actually load in under an hour.  I got around to my playlist. 

 

I love music.  It always makes me feel however I want to feel.  Whatever mood I'm in, I have a soundtrack.  So I really loved putting together some songs for my page several months ago.  I'm old, so my playlist had a bunch of 80's stuff on there, but I'm also weird, so I couldn't find a lot of the newer music that was rocking my socks.  Anyway, all of that rambling leads up to this...I found my music!  I was able to put some obscure bands on my playlist that I hadn't been able to have on there before.  And the weirdest thing happened...I got giddy.  Stupid giddy. 

 

Now, I have all of those songs on my computer already.  I own them, I listen to them, I have them on my ipod.  That doesn't matter for some reason.  What made me giddy was finding out that someone, somewhere, put the music that I have been listening to onto a file that could be downloaded to my CM playlist.  Now I am playing on CM & listening, not to itunes, but to my CM playlist.  Why does this matter?  I have no freakin' clue.

 

Last night, after finding all of my music, a friend of mine & I were chatting & visiting the questions & journals sections of CM.  My giddiness exploded into laughter & sarcasm.  I started laughing at some of the stuff she was coming up with.  I started laughing at myself.  And yes, I laughed so hard that my sides hurt--for the first time in months. 

 

Today seems brighter, better.  I love the women I have met on this site.  They have really made my life a nicer place to be.  And I love that I can read all about their lives, thoughts & hilarity while listening to a kick ass soundtrack.

[xtina34]

Jan. 13, 2009 at 1:28 PM

Awwww Well we loves ya too ! 

Music is a wondrous thing.  We use music alllll day in this house.. Whether its in the morning to dance some energy out before school, or motivation to get off my ass to clean, or just making up silly songs to sing to Durant to get him to brush his teeth. 

[athimom]

Jan. 13, 2009 at 2:54 PM

Put one foot in front of the other!

So what they say about music taming the savage beast...true, no?

[jspy72]

Jan. 14, 2009 at 11:28 AM

I loves you too, I can't listen to your fab playlist here at work but I am looking forward to checking it out at home. :)