I can do this!!

[cat_2010]

My marriage has been a series of extreme ups and downs in its ten months of existence.  Due to a tumultuous marriage, depression during pregnancy and post-partum depression, I have felt upset, angry and out-of-place all the time.  Being alone, even with my infant son, was not healthy for me.  I had been worried about what would happen when my husband leaves for Army training throughout our life together.  He has been gone for a couple of weeks and will be until the end of the month...

And to my surprise, I'm doing great!  I am a full-time college student and a (temporarily) single parent and I am loving every minute of this!  Somehow it seems as though the depression has finally lifted.  I am enjoying my son more and am functioning better in everyday life.  What a drastic change from feeling terrible all the time to feeling wonderful about everything! 

Maybe its because I'm finally doing this on my own and know that I can be a good mother and care for my son no matter what, while still pursuing my dreams through school.  Maybe its because the husband is gone...?  He has been putting me through a lot, trying to leave multiple times since our son was 2 weeks old.  I don't know, but no matter what, everything is going to be okay!!! :)

[maofemmjacgav]

Jan. 13, 2009 at 4:40 PM

That's great!!! ... glad you feel better!!!