Mary Version:2009

[maryw24]

So, I have been contemplating what kind of person I want to be...mainly the things I want to work on about myself this year. I have came up with a few changes I want to make...

1. I am going to quit smoking... I am so disappointed with myself that I quit for 13 weeks and then started to smoke again. My plan is that I am going to gradually step down until I am quit all together. Starting today I am only going to have 4 cigs a day, Next week will be 3 and so on and so forth until I am no longer smoking. There may be some slip ups along the way but I am going to stick with it. This is a disgusting habit that I am tired of having. It costs me money and time..two precious things, not to mention my health and I want to be healthy for Luke and set a good example so here goes nothing.

2. I am going to be a more positive person. I am always focusing on the negative side of everything...what I hate to do, what I hate about my life, I don't have enough time and just feeling sorry for myself in general. This is going to stop. I am so very blessed and the sooner that I realize this the better my life will be. I have a wonderful husband who loves me and is the worlds greatest father to Luke, I have a son who makes me....me and who makes my life so great and blessed, I have a great dog who is just like a family member, I have a roof over my head, food to eat, a job and a car to get me there......it's time that I start to see the silver lining...the bright side of things. I am going to start enjoying the good in my life...no more thinking about what I should do...I am going to do what I want to do at that moment in time....and I am going to say to myself that I have  nothing but time. I find myself so many times saying well I should read that book or I should try that new photo editing tutorial I've been wanting to try instead of doing what I really want to be doing which is playing with my son or cuddling with him. Even though those other things are things that I do want to do, there will be plenty of time for those....my son will only be little once. I think this will make me more positive instead of having regrets for what I should have done and what I really wanted to do.

3. I am going to lose weight and get more fit. I have lost weight before, 66 pounds to be exact, and I can do it again. I just need to get the right foods in the house before I can really see results in this area. I am going to try to work out every day even if it's just for a few minutes a day. When spring hits Luke and I are going to go on walks, which will be so much fun. I know I can do this and I will post my results as I go. I also joined the Weight Watchers group that is for those of us who can't afford the meetings. This will be great. Weight Watchers is how I lost the 66 pounds and I just don't have the money to go back right now.

So, this is the Mary Version:2009. I think quiting smoking is going to be the hardest part of all. It really is an addiction. I wish they would just make those things illeagal...I think that would make it easier. I am going to try to post more as the days go on and let everyone know how this all is going. If you need support in any of these areas, feel free to write...as I may need a shoulder to lean on some times also. So, here I go....wish me luck.