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Yeah, Im F#@king Venting!!!!!
- Jan 15, 2009 at 4:47 PM
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Im just gonna type for a bit because I feel bottled up! Im stressed and its makin my stomach hurt and my head hurt,and a need a release!
Stress will be the death of me, I swear! Its stupid shit, mainly.....then again, Idk. I guess it all depends on who you are, but its stuff thats wearin on me. Its usually a daily occurrence too. It feels like no matter how great my family is and how much love my husband and I share, these stupid things keep draggin me down. Depressin me. They make me sick! To the point of missin my martial arts class, again, tonight because I just dont want to deal. My heart isnt in it, and I dont want to be around people right now! I hate people! I truly do!
Ok, maybe I should clarify......I hate stupid mother fucking pieces of shit that keep gettin in my fuckin way while Im drivin!!!!!
Oh, and whoo hoo! Apparently, its fuckin tourist season because every other asshole that gets in front of me, for the past 2 weeks, has been a fuckin tourist! I hate drivin anyways, but these fucktards need to get the fuck off my road NOW!!!!!!! Idiots! All of them! Like Florida doesnt have enough already!
I told my husband I was makin scrambled eggs for dinner. Its quick, easy, and we all like it! I asked him what he wanted with it. He said, cheese and toast. I said, well, theres no more cheese and were out of butter. Do you want Jelly? Oh, no....wait......Were almost outta jelly too and the kids need it for their lunches....
Fuck me! Headache! Ow!
See, more stress! Theres never enough to eat in this fuckin house! Dont get me wrong, the kids are always fed. We go food shoppin when we can, but we have a limited amount of funds without me workin.
I went to the store the other day. I told my husband what I was gettin, then I asked him if there was anything else we needed. He said No. So, I got the basics.....milk, cheese, bread, kool-aid, TP, etc..... Then he tells me last night, whyll I was lookin for something to eat, "You just went to the store. Why didnt you get any food?" Because I knew we only had a limited amount of money, and when I asked you if there was anything else we needed, that was your fuckin clue to tell me to pick up some dinners!!!!! Fuck!!!!! If you took your fuckin head out of your stupid ass "World of Warcrack" game for more then a second, maybe the thought wouldve popped into your fuckin head the other day when I asked you! Not three days latter when we dont really have any extra cash to get more to eat! Fuck!!!!! Ow!
So, the kids had HIS leftover pizza for dinner last night and we had ice cream =P Imconstantly hungry because what I do eat isnt healthy or fillin, so Im constantly puttin more junkfood into my body! Do you kno what Im always eatin because its here, easy to make and cheap? Toast with mayo and BBQ sauce on it! Yeah, its fuckin good, but how much weight am I gainin from that shit!?
Then theres my SD......my annoyin little spastic, blonde of a SD. Little princess that thinks she should always get her way! I guess thats a typical 6 year old, for the most part, but she annoys me to no fuckin end! Every little thing she does gets on my last fuckin nerve! She doesnt think, thats why I call her a "blonde". She really is, but she acts the part too! She gets pissed and frustrated when she doesnt understand what youre sayin....Im sorry, this is prob just me......then she cries and whines and drives me fuckin mad!!!!!! I love the girl, I really do, but I dont have any connection with her except for her Father. As far as my SDs relationship with me goes, thats not enough. I dont kno how to form one with her either! I try to be nice, I try to stay calm, but it always ends up with me yellin at her or bein sarcastic towards her because she asks the stupidest questions!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh.........Owwwwww......FUCK!!!!!!!
I guess thats it, at the moment.
I kno most of this shit is caused by the fact that, I swear, I have PMS 3 out of 4 weeks a month. My poor husband! This month, it just better fuckin show, thats all I gotta say......more fuckin stress.......
I need a fuckin drink!
Thanx, for bein there for me, and readin all this crap, if you did..... I was on a total rant and this shit is in no particular order because its all pissin me off at the moment!
I wish I could say it made me feel better to write, but my head is still throbin.....
Im so tired. Stress kills!
Comments:
Sounds like you need a Xanax! I feel your pain, though. I feel the same a lot of days. Especially with the food and SD thing. Hope you calm down!!!! You should go to your class if its not too late. It will make you feel better!!
You don't need to keep ditching your class. You enjoy it, it's great exercise & it will help to relive some stress! Do it for you!!!!
Relax, get some rest & keep your chin up! Hang in there & you can vent anytime! That's what we are here for!
Big Hugs!!!!
Lisa
WHOA! sounds like me sometimes. When you got so much going on in your head that its just random but it makes sense to you. Stress sucks but the best way to deal is to get out and do something! Hugs~ A
Stress does kill sweetheart, good job gettin all that shit out~! I agree with the girls though, go to your class? Seems you always feel better after kicking sweaty guy ass...right? It's good to get stuff out through excersize, if you're not up to being around people, why don't you get out and go for a walk...or stomp, like I do... ....PMS sucks big fat hairy balls....
I hope you feel better after that I read all of it and I feel ya! There are days I dont want to get out of bed I swear its cause I look at my girls and they give me strength or the fact that some day I wont be here and I have to live for the moment even if it stresses me out sometimes I say fuck it !!!And try to find something that will lift my spirits and sometimes its hard when you are stuck in that dark hole...I hope you have a smile on your face now and are not stressed or sad hopefully you found that one thing that makes you happy!((((HUGS))))
maybe you should try do something with just her (ur sd) not sure on the situation about her mom but that could be her problem she lives with yall right? maybe she wonders why she dont live with her mom and stuff.my 14 yr old lived with my mom up until last year now he moved in with his dad and he the last 2 years started acting like a thug and gettingin trouble alot of it is the fact I never raised him. Maybe she is looking for a female figure in her life? I dont just trying to help. Do they have a food assistance program there? maybe you qualify for it or even reduced lunches at school maybe. Hope you feel better
Hey hun I know how it is. I do not work just go to school so Dh's income is all we got! I balance the family budget and hubby says" Im getting 2 cartons of cigs and beer," Im like... let's wait because DS's birthday is next Sun and we gotta get food, present,etc. So he fits like a friggen 2yr old"FINE I wont get any f*ing cigs," I eman jesus.. do I not manage the $$ in this house and for once at tax time we are not getting shut off on everything, HELLO!!!!
When my hubby gets like that I throw the chekc book at him and say" fine you manage the money and when everything gets shut off its all in YOUR name so it will be YOUR ass and then I will throw YOU out cause the apt has MY name on it" That usually shuts him up!
HUGS hunny it will be ok Just tell hubby if he cant be supportive to shut the fuck up!
Ok, I'm a day late on this one, but all I can say is I totally feel your pain, I totally understand everything you're feeling..................& I'm having a drink too. CHEERS!
Here is a littile something for you freebies4 mom.com and coupon surfer. Plus if you have a big chain grovery store down there I'm sure they have a site with more stuff. We have kroger and they give you coupons and free stuff. They 0shoul0d cheer .you up .a .littie. Sorry about the dots Ian was helping
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