tired of it! 1-16-09

[bellanemilynmom]

Well I have nobody to talk to about it with out them being byas one way of another, so I feel like letting it out. sorry if the spelling and or punctuation sucks.

If your my friend and your reading this you may or may not know about my family , I have two little girls 2 years and 7 months they are great and I love them soooooo much, more than anything. My husband is my age 28 and sometime i think we moved to fast. we dated for like 4 years before we had got married and after marriage life was great. but as soon as we had kids and it was like "alright time to grow up and be parents" our whole everything took ten steps back. I love my husband because he is the father of my children and he provides well for them and myself. but now its like we are on different planets, he goes one way I go another. I sucks I just want to have a happy family I want to feel like I'm loved from him, I want him to " want " to be here with us. but if he isn't at work he always finds something else to do to not be home then he eats dinner complains about the house being a mess and falls asleep at 7:00pm. Its like thanks all i do is sit at home with our kids all day, cleaning up after them, feeding them wash them , laundry, dishes, make the bed,(which I don't even sleep in any more) clean the kitchen, vacuum , make dinner and then get shit on. Only to wake up again and do it all again the next day. Then I get to hear don't touch the money we "need it" but he has 2 new snowmobiles,a mustang he never drives,the big truck of his dreams( along with the payment), new dump truck for work, and a used but new to us truck for "plowing" but he doesn't use it to plow. Last summer I told him we need a sedan instead of the SUV(gas prices), he said okay your budget is $3,000. Yeah I'm gonna drive around some old beater with my two kids in it, because your the only one that is aloud to spend money in our house. come on thanks a lot. I tired of arguing with him about, him staying out all night drinking, and wanting to snowmobile all weekend, I just want him to want to be with me and our kids and that seems to be the furthest thing from his mind , like I said I love him I'm just not in love with him. how can I get that back?I If would have know his parenting Ideas before, I never would have married him! Today I feel like packing my kids and my bags and never looking back, can people do that??? Every time we have this argument it comes down to him saying " I'll try" and I never happens after so many fake ass promise when do you just give up?

[bellanemilynmom]

Jan. 16, 2009 at 11:34 PM

please leave comments I need em!

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[maofemmjacgav]

Jan. 17, 2009 at 12:21 AM

    I'm gonna PM U